Blood, sweat and tears ~ MYG

'I love you'

Chapter pt 7: I love you

I was wondering what's in the note book. I wanted to ask, but I didn't want him to be angry so I just left it. Should I tell him what I did? I asked myself. I was thinking about it just when he asked. 'And what about Jimin? Was....was it okay?' He sighed. 'What exactly do you want to know?' 'Did anything happen between you too?' He grabbed my chin and looked directly into my eyes. I tried not to cry, but than one tear left my eye. He pulled me into a hug and said 'Hey....don't cry. I won't be angry, okay? Just tell me the truth, baby.' 'Y-You won't?' I looked at him. 'No, I swear I won't. No matter what you did, I'll try to understand, because I hurt you more.' 'We did something, but I don't want to talk about it, please.' At first he stared at me. I was sticking on his chest like a glue, he was all wet and covered with my tears. 'Did he fuck you?' 'No!' 'Than it's okay.' He smirked and pulled me closer. 'Let's watch a movie tonight, hmm? I promise I will make time.' He kissed me and ran his fingers through my hair. 'Okay, I'm really sorry.' I looked at him as another tear came out of my eye. 'It's fine baby, I'm not innocent....you're neither so let's just try to move on, okay?' 'Yeah.' I sobbed and soaked up the tears. 'But now I really have to go to work. Are you okay with that? I can take a home office!' 'I'll be fine, I think I'm gonna sleep for a while.' I smiled as he cupped my cheeks. 'Fine...just don't cry. Look at you.....the cutest thing I've ever seen in my life.' He was tickling me, making me laugh so hard. 'Please, stop and go to work before I'll change my mind.' I raised my eyebrows and licked my lips. 'Yes, ma'am!' He started marching away. He left the house, I took a shower and rushed into his office. I needed to know what's in this note book, but somehow I was scared to find out. I sighed and took the note book in my hands. I opened it, seeing our wedding photo based there. I turned to the next page. He was capturing every single moment and photo with me there. I was crying more every time I turned the page. Than I saw one thing that left me speechless. It was a short poem and the name of it was 'To you'.

- You set my soul in fire,
- my heart longs for you,
- It's so strong, It's like desire,
- Now I am really bound to you,
- I can't stop it, I can't fight,
- The emotions makes me weak,
- I just want to hold you in my arms,
- And never let you leave,
- I know that I'm an Idiot, I know that I'm stupid,
- But please, give me a chance to show you that I'm worth it,
- I'm so sorry that I'm so shy and scared,
- To say 'Baby, I love you.',
- But I promise If you'll wait,
- I'll show you that no one is gonna love you the way that I do.

Omg.....I can't believe he wrote this. I could feel every single lyric hitting my heart. I cried even more. I don't know why, but I felt so bad and cruel. I mean.....it still hurts me that he can't express his feelings it makes me feel bad, but I'll wait. I never wanted to force him into anything. He always tried to make me happy and I appreciate it, even though It's always in his own way. It's something completely different than with Jimin. Jimin has no problems in expressing feelings and emotions. Sometimes he's too carefull, because he doesn't want to hurt me. He's also very charming and knows How to flirt with the girls, but that's a big disadvantage honestly. There were a lot of times when he acted like a womanizer and a lot of times when I thought he was cheating on me, but I always believed him. Yoongi is.....really different. He loves me, I know he does, but he never express his love to me and I don't know exactly why....I think It's because he's shy or something. He looks at other girls, but always says that I'm the most beautiful and precious thing that he saw in his life and that they can't compare to me. Of course, he could've had so many girls and one night stands, but he always said to me that he doesn't need them since he has me. I can feel that he cares, but that's all. I can't hear it from him. I mean....I'll wait....but I don't know for How long I can take it. I closed the note book, crying my eyes off. I went to the bathroom to take a shower and than decided to get a little bit of sleep. When I woke up....it was around 3 pm. I dressed myself in some comfy clothes and headed down to the kitchen. My eyes were burning from the tears so I washed them and felt better. I started to make a dinner. When everything was set, I went to the living room and turned the music on. I started to clean up the place, since there was a lot of mess from yesterday. I was dancing while washing the floor with a mop.