Blood, sweat and tears ~ MYG

Crazier

Chapter pt 3: Crazier

After the kissing I can't really remember anything.....I guess I was so tired and felt safe that I probably fell asleep. The next day I woke up at home in a bed. All I can remember is that this morning he gave me a kiss on my forehead, but that's all I know. So when I woke up I did my morning routine as always and than I wanted to go to the kitchen to prepare myself something to eat, but there was already a prepared breakfast. I was surprised, because he didn't do anything like that before and also yesterday was pretty weird and I guess he came out of his comfort zone, but I'm so glad that he's improving. So I ate the breakfast and than as everyday I started exercising. I was exercising about like 2 hours and than I wanted to go take a shower, but I heard a ring bell. I was wondering who could it be at this kind of early afternoon. So I went to open the door and guess who was standing there? Ok, of course it was Jimin...my eyes were slowly analyzing him. I didn't know what he wanted, but I knew that It's not gonna be good If I won't slam the door before his face, but of course I didn't do that. 'What do you want here and who even told you that I live here?' I asked and tried not to be angry. 'Taehyung told me.....um....can I maybe go inside?' He said and smiled. 'Okay, but just for a while I have some work to do!' I said and steped away so he could go inside. 'Wow...this house is really nice, Is it your house?' 'No, this is Yoongi's house. I moved in here right after the wedding as my parents suggested. Anyways that's probably not why you came here right?' I said, I was really trying no to fall for him, he was very charming. 'Nah, nah....um...look I wanted to apologize.' I couldn't believe what did he just said. 'I know that my behaviour wasn't good yesterday, but....gosh...I missed you so much!' He pressed me against the wall and moved closer to me. 'You missed me?! Really? You think I believe that?! I'm not that stupid Jimin. I know that you didn't even try to fight for me. And what about your wife? Does she even know that you're here? No of course she doesn't.' I said, I was so angry at this moment. 'Yes, I missed you. That's not entirely true. I tried....I was sending you letters every week and I tried to get you back, but my parents said that you've sent them all back and that you're not interested anymore. So I stopped....I didn't know what to do anymore! I'm sorry, Ann. I truly am.' When I heard that I.....I....what?, he actually tried to get me back?, that's really weird, because my parents told me exactly the same. Omg....they just wanted us to move on. I mean I knew that, but I didn't know that they would go that far for that. 'And what about your wife?' I said as I tried not to cry. 'Well, we were just friends before, She's a psychiatrist I was going to her sessions when I had to leave you....and she really helped me. We were just friends but than my mother insisted that I have to marry her. I...I didn't have anything to loose anymore since you were gone.' That really broke me. He went to the psychiatrist? Was he that broken? And the last sentence, I could felt that. I didn't know what to say anymore. I was just staring at him, memories was replying in my head, I couldn't help it, I started crying. 'Ann, please, no don't cry. I'm sorry I didn't wanted to make you upset, I just wanted you to know the truth.' He said as he wiped away my tears. 'Do you want me to leave?' 'I...I don't know this is just too much for me!' I said as I was crying so heavily. He huged me and was kissing my forehead. 'It's okay, that was back than, I'm okay now. Don't worry, I'm here, I'm here.' His words were really calming me down as they always did. I was feeling good in his arms and I could smell his perfume, so fucking good as always. Suddenly I was thinking about Yoongi, I can't do this to him. My feelings are mixed right now. I mean....I know for sure that I love Yoongi, but Jimin, I don't know he just...he was always the Man that I had weakness for and just from his hug I could feel so much love and understanding. And from Yoongi I can't feel that as much as I need. I didn't know what to do right now. I guess I'm starting to be at the same point as I was back than, but this version is even worse, because I think I love them both I'll just have to realize who's the right one for me. I was calming down and he knew that, he looked me in the eyes, wiped away my tears and said 'Are you okay? Is It better now?' I could feel that he really cared about me. 'Uhm...yeah...It Is. What exactly do you want from me Jimin?' I said. 'I don't know, maybe you?' He said and sighed. He just said he wants me back and my exe just stopped working. 'Me? You want me, now? But we're married and I don't know If you love your wife, but I sure love my husband.' 'Than I'm probably wasting time, right? I don't know what I thought, I'm sorry, I shouldn't do this. I'm gonna leave and we can forget about it, okay? Have a happy life sunshine. I love you.' He said, kissed me on my forehead as his tears were falling down, he didn't want to let me go. I guess he felt like this is his last time he will see me and he was so broken. And I don't know why, but I didn't want to let him go as well...I still care about him and I can't just let him go and pretend that everything is okay. As I saw that he wanted to go, I grabbed his wrist and pulled him back to myself. I didn't know what I was doing and I didn't say anything I was just staring at him. 'What? I knew you won't let me go.' He said as he was giggling, he was really happy that I didn't let him go. 'I don't know what I wanna do right now, because I don't want to hurt anyone, but I know for sure that I don't want to let you go.' I smiled back at him and huged him. 'Please, don't be too fast at me. My feelings are mixed right now and If you want me to decide who I want to be with than I'm gonna tell you right away that I don't know that and please don't force me to make any decisions.' 'I would never want that. I just want you to be happy, okay? And If you'll want to stay with him, I'll have to accept that and I'll respect your decision. This is not your fault, sunshine. This was my fault....I should've try more....I shouldn't let you go. I'm so sorry that I did, because I've lost the only thing that I loved the most, I've lost my diamond. I guess I should go now, before your husband will be home. I'll wait for your decision, okay?!' He said, gave me a little kiss, but just a little like kids are giving each other and than he left. This was terribly exhausting for me. I finally took a shower and than I sat down at the piano and was singing some songs. I needed to get all of those emotions out of me. When I was little my dad used to teach me How to play the piano and we were always singing together, I really missed that so much. I wish I could take that time back, I had no worries, no problems, I was just a little, innocent girl a very happy girl. The kids really don't have any worries to care about, do they? So I played the piano and I was just singing 'No time to die' by Billie Eilish when Yoongi came home. I didn't even notice him I was immersed in emotions. I knew that i was in his office and he doesn't really like when I go there, but at this moment I didn't care. He heard some noises so he came to his office and saw me playing and singing. He didn't say anything, he was just looking at me and waited till I was done with this song. When I was done, he came to me, put me on the piano and started kissing me. I was completely carried away by his temptation. I felt like I needed his love more than ever before. We were touching each other so passionately and we were out of breath, but we just didn't care. I was like If I'm gonna die due to lack of oxygen, I definetly want it that way. I was only wearing a bathrobe and a soft silk nightgown underneath. He was exploring my body and I was exploring his. I didn't want this to end. He took me in his arms, laid me carefully on the bed, took his shirt off and slowly began to roll my nightgown up. He was kissing my whole body and didn't miss a single piece. He moved up and started kissing me, but this time, it wasn't so rough, he was acting like he wanted to know every single inch of my body, he wanted to know where are my scars, where do I have tattoos, just everything. Well...I was exploring him too. I was touching his abs, I couldn't get enough of them and his arms....gosh....If he would punch someone with these hands, I swear their heads wouldn't survive. He has a perfect body and I was kind of shy right now to be honest, because I have a lot of scars and stuff like that, but he didn't care. He continued so confidently as he always is with these things...
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