Not just another book

Chapter 4

I sat, crying.  Nothing seems to be going my way lately but you. Its like the world doesn’t want me to be happy. One day i meet this amazing new friend, and the next my sister calls and tells me my mother has died. I havnt told you yet. And i’m not sure that i will. I think it’ll make you sad. And i never, ever want to make you sad.

“Hey, sorry I’ve been so distant these past couple days.. I haven’t been feeling well.But neither have you. You’ve been crying a lot. I like to think that we’re somehow connected but i doubt its true. You took me to the coffee shop and spilled a little on me but i didn’t mind, i was intent on hearing the conversation that you and that guy were having. how dare he talk to someone like that. Especially you. He has not right to be talking to you in that tone of voice. No one does. I don’t even understand why you bother with him. I’d be such a better choice.”

I did not just say that. You’re just a friend. Nothing more. Why am i feeling like this? I’m so confused. I love the girl in my dreams. There’s just no way i could like you, much less love you. But if this is true why do i get so jealous when you talk to other guys……. NO. Stop it Demetri. You do not like your new best friend. Do NOT mess this up.

“besides,” i laugh “I’m cuter anyways!” Its a dumb joke and cover up but i hope you wont see through it. Not until i figure out my feelings anyways. 

“how was your day?” i ask. Even though i know it was probably terrible. I heard crying, or maybe that was the TV? I don’t know, but if it was you I’d really like it if you told me what was going on.

“Come on, tell me. You can trust me. I wont judge you.”