Roommates?

Do i wanna know?

AN: Hi guys! So this story is from my ao3 user, and i'd appreciate you'd check that out, the user is Jennawastaken and i upload there more regularly, and i have some other stories there, so if u enjoy this, check it out :D

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Nobodys POV:

Techno is driving down a street that was crowded with cars, people trying get to their destination in time, now almost empty, seeing only a few cars. Techno was feeling really weird and disappointed in himself. Why did his feeling have to get in the way of their amazing friendship that had been going on for so long? He turned on the radio and the music flooded his ears.

'Cause there's this tune I found
That makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat
Until I fall asleep, spillin' drinks on my settee

If this feelin' flows both ways?
(Sad to see you go) Was sorta hopin' that you'd stay
(Baby, we both know) That the nights were mainly made
For sayin' things that you can't say tomorrow day

Crawlin' back to you
Ever thought of callin' when
You've had a few?
'Cause I always do
Maybe I'm too
Busy bein' yours
To fall for somebody new
Now, I've thought it through
Crawlin' back to you

So have you got the guts?
Been wonderin' if your heart's still open
And if so, I wanna know what time it shuts-

He turned the radio off, shocked how that song made him feel. Techno felt his throat itch and his eyes water. He always got this feeling when he was about to cry. That annoying pull in his throat that was feeling unbearable now. Techno decided to pull over and just let it all out. When he started crying, he couldn't stop for almost half an hour. He felt his eyes grow dry, tears simply not coming anymore. His hoodie was wet from wiping his eyes on the sleeves, but he didn't feel like taking the hoodie off, considering that he only had a t-shirt under it. The hoodie was comfortable. The lyrics had really been specific.

Maybe I'm too
Busy bein' yours
To fall for somebody new
Now, I've thought it through
Crawlin' back to you

That. He realized he'd never get over the three boys. It was eating him inside. He just wanted to cuddle with them and feel complete. He didn't have the guts to confront them though, so it was all for nothing. He'd just always come back to them. He really wanted to know if the feeling flowed both ways. He had so many questions, but absolutely no answers. Was he poly? At least he knew he was gay, that's for sure. Techno sighed and got back to driving home. Did the boys like him back? Were they already in a poly relationship? Maybe they were just really good friends? Did they hate him now? He left really suddenly. Would they think he was being weird? Would he make them uncomfortable? He wasn't really good with feelings. Techno promised to himself that he'd think about it more when he would get home. It was already quite late so he decided not to go get coffee, and instead go grab something from the bakery. He picked a small dessert that had some vanilla frosting on the top. He'd eat it when he would get home. He drove for a while and noticed the darkness descend, bringing darkness. Techno parked his car on the driveway and went in, immediately feeling the cold air hit his face. Well, if he froze alive, at least he wouldn't have to confess his feelings. He scoffed and turned the heating to max. He decided to write a little letter to the boys on his notes app. He would never send it, of course, he just needed to get some feelings out.

Well. I have no idea what to write. I cried today. I had to pull over and i sobbed for a straight 30 minutes. I had to stop when the tears just didn't fall anymore. I listened to 'Do i wanna know' by arctic monkeys. It reminded me of you. I've been really confused with myself lately, you know? I'm pretty sure i'm polyamorous. And i have feelings towards you guys. Yeah, all of you. I need to figure out a way to tell you. I'm just so lost and helpless. George, when you smile, i feel like i've never been sad. You make me so happy. Dream, when we make eye contact, i see why green is some peoples favourite colour. It looks like fireworks. Sapnap, your presence makes me feel so safe and loved. Just having you by my side reminds me that there are people who care about me. It's nice. I love you all so so much. It's already kind of late. I think i'll write here more, it's almost like i'm getting weight off my shoulders. It's liberating.