Michael and I were having a game day with the band in a hour and we are planning on playing board games like Monopoly and Scrabble and other ones too. Its going to be fun!! Michael has been crabby a lot today though .He's been snapping a lot towards me too. I hope his attitude changes when the guys get here otherwise it won't be much fun.
* 1 Hour later*
The guys are here and they knock on the door and I answer it and say 'hi' and tell them to make themselves at home. Michael walks up and says 'hey guys!! How are you doing!!" All smiley and cheerfully. They say good and go to talk and stuff in the living room while I go and get drinks and snacks. I go into the kitchen, get the drinks and food and walk back into the living room handing out the drinks and when I got to Michael he rolled his eyes at me. Calum noticed that, I just smiled at them and asked "what game are we going to play first?" They say 'Scrabble' Luke and I take it out and set it up flipping the letters around so they're all face down in the box cover. We are set up a minute or two later and we get seated comfortably on the floor around the table. I'm sitting next to Luke and Ashton,Calum's next to him and Michael's by Luke. We are all having fun except Micael. We need refills on drinks and snacks so Calum and I go into the kitchen to get it.Once we get in there he asks "Are Michael and you okay?" "He's been upset with me all day and I don't know why. He hasn't hugged me or kissed me in a couple days. Do you think its the end now?" I ask Calum ready to start crying. "I don't know but if you need anything like to stay at my house or for me to come pick you up later call me ok?" He's says. "Thank you Calum." We head back to the living room when I heard Michael say "Guys I think this is the end with me and (Y/N)." Calum knew I heard this and took me upstairs and helped me pack my clothes into a suitcase and load it into his car and told me to wait in his car while he goes and says he has to leave now. He says his 'goodbyes' and is in the car and gone within a minute. "I knew it was the end, I knew it, why didn't I leave yesterday or a couple days ago. I'll tell you why, because I thought he was just overwhelmed with something but would talk to me about it when he was ready. I guess I was wrong. I tried so hard and long for him it just didn't please him then he goes and tells the other guys before me. Of all people no offense he tells friends about breaking up with me before he tells me. I have to hear it through a doorway. While trying to have a nice night with some friends. Why wasn't he happy with me? I don't know and right now I don't care because I'm upset ." I say to Calum as he drives then he says " You do make him happy, he was talking just the other day about how much he loves you" Just then my phone starts ringing its Michael. "Hello?" I answer. "Hey where did you go? The other guys left 'cause it's late and we were all getting tired. Where are you baby?" "I'm with Calum. Why?" I ask. "Why are you with Calum? And because you're my girlfriend and I want to go to sleep but I can't without you here with me.That's why." "I'm not your girlfriend you told Luke and Ashton that you thought this was the end for you and me so I left." I say and hang up. "That was Michael, asking me where I was. I hope he's happy and finds a girl out there who makes him happy all the time. Because it wasn't me who could do it." I say to Calum and ask if I can turn on the radio, he said yeah. Right when I turn it on 'Amnesia' starts playing and that was when I started crying and Calum reached for my hand and held it. When it ended we were pulling into his driveway. "I'm sorry Calum." "Don't be, I'm here for you. Let's go inside." We enter the house and I ask for some juice and get it myself. While I'm in the kitchen my phone rings again, Michael. "Hello?" I say tired and upset. "Baby that's not what I meant and you know it." He says "You were upset with me all day,you didn't hug me, kiss me, or cuddle with me for a couple days. I don't mean to sound 'clingy' or anything but how would you feel?" "(Y/N) I want you home with me now. Please?" "No, you broke up with me and couldn't even tell me you told our friends instead and I had to hear it through a doorway. I'm..." "You're what?" He asks "done Michael, I'm done" "No don't, don't say that, you don't mean that, you're joking with me again aren't you (Y/N) ? You're upstairs in our room and hiding so I have to come and find you aren't you?" "No Michael I'm not. I'm at Calum's, in his kitchen getting juice." "Come home please. I wasn't breaking up with you, I said it because I was upset." "Upset about what? Why didn't you talk to me about it?" "Because I thought I would get over it. I was just upset over nothing,nothing at all,really. I just needed my space." "Yeah well now you have it.You could've told me you wanted or needed time to yourself. Instead of ignoring me." "I know and I'm sorry. Please come home by me again. Please." "Goodbye Michael I'm going to bed now." I say and hang up and turn my phone off. Calum walks in now and I hand him his juice. "Was that Michael?" He asks "Yeah he said he was just upset because he needed his space and he thought I was joking when I said I left. He wants me home.What do I do? I love him I do very much. He could've told me though I think I would've understood. I'm not clingy am I? I don't want to be, do I seem clingy, am I? Oh no what if I am and he just didn't want to tell me?" "You're not, I promise. Do you want to sleep in bed with me tonight?" "Yes please?" I say to him "Come here (Y/N) ." I go to him and he hugs me. "I love you and no matter what I'll be here for you." He whispers in my ear. I pull away and grab his hand and walk to his bed. "What if him and I don't get back together? What if it really is the end of our relationship? What if he hates me and yells at me and hurts me." "Hurts you how?" Calum asks and wraps his arms around me. " What if he hits me and then kicks me and hurts me?" I say. "Then I kill him because I won't let you get hurt and he would never do that to you he loves you. He won't hate you." "You don't know that." "You're right I don't but I don't think he would. He's not that type of guy." "I miss him, can I call him and tell him goodnight?" "Yeah do whatever you want." I tell Calum I'll be right back and go to the living room and call Michael. I call and he answers "Hello?" "Hey Michael." "(Y/N) hi! Hi, are you okay, are you hurt, are you safe, what's wrong?" He asks "I'm fine. I just wanted to call and say goodnight." "Babygirl I miss you. I wish you were here with me. I love you and miss you, are you okay? Do you want me to come and get you?" "No don't come get me I just wanted to say goodnight because I'm sleeping over here tonight. So goodnight." "Babe?" "Yeah?" "Are you going to come home tomorrow?" "I don't know. I want you to be happy so you have your space." "I changed my mind. I don't need my space away from you. I need you with me. I miss you so much. I'm sorry I didn't hug and kiss you and cuddle you. I want your hugs and kisses and especially your cuddles. I love you very much. I love you, I do." "I'm going to sleep okay? I just wanted to tell you goodnight okay?" "Babygirl no come home?" "Goodnight Mikey." "Goodnight (Y/N) I love you." " I love you, goodbye." "Goodnight babygirl." "Goodnight." I say and hang up and start crying. I go back up to Calum who is just laying there not sleeping yet. "Calum?" I whisper. "Yeah?" "Can I still sleep by you?" "Yes of course.Come here." I crawl up by him. He puts his arms around me again. "I'm going home tomorrow okay?" "Okay, if you want." "Thank you Calum." "You're welcome." We fall asleep. A few hours later I wake up from a nightmare where Michael was hurting me and hitting me. Calum asks if I am okay. I tell him what I dreamt about and started crying again. "I'm going to go call him again okay? To make sure he's okay. Okay?" "Okay." I go back downstairs and call him again he answers."(Y/N)! Are you okay? What's wrong? Hello." "No,I had a dream." "Dream about what?" "Would you ever punch me or hurt me?" I ask him crying "No baby no. Why? Was that what you had a dream about? Baby I would never hurt you. No." "Yes. I had a dream where you were hitting me and you wouldn't stop." I say crying on the phone. "Baby don't cry. I would never ever do that." "Come get me. Please." "Yes yes yes I'll be right there in ten minutes okay. Ten minutes, I'm getting my shoes on now, I love you, I'll be right there. I'm coming baby don't cry, don't worry. I'm coming for you. Be ready. I love you." "Okay bye. Love you." We hang up. I go upstairs and tell Calum "I'm going home." "Now?" "Yes Michael's coming to get me." "Okay. Are you sure?" "Yes. I miss him like crazy. Thank you for helping me." "Yes anytime. Call me if you need anything." He says getting up and hugging me. "I'm going now Calum. I'll talk to you tomorrow." "Good call me." "I will. Goodbye." I got my suitcase and see Michael pull up. I opened the door and he got out of the car. I started walking towards him and the car to put my suitcase in it. "Baby, Babygirl, (Y/N)." He says as he hugs me and I hug back. "Michael. I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry, I missed you so much." "No no no I'm sorry. I'll never ignore you again. Your hugs, kisses and cuddles, I'm sorry. I'll never hurt you. Never." " I love you. I love you Mikey, I love you so much." I say crying. "I love you. I love you. I love you. I'm going to take you home and hug you even more and kiss you and then we're going to go to bed and cuddle all night. I love you." "I love you, Let's go home. Please?" He put my suitcase in the car and opened the door for me. Then he got in. He grabbed my hand and kissed it. I held his and hand and arm and kissed it. "I love you Michael." I whisper as we drive . "I love you too." He whispers back. When we got home he carried my suitcase upstairs set it down and pulled me into him for a hug. "I'm in love with you. I never want to lose you, you mean too much to me. Stay with me?" "Yes, I'm in love with you too. Never hit me?" "Never baby. Never." "Let's go to sleep?" "Yeah, let's go." We get in bed and kiss and cuddle. "I love you." We say to each other,then drift to sleep.
