Torture

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Stephen sat in front of me and we ate breakfast together. No one really talked and I noticed that something is bothering him, I'm going to find out what it is.

"No work today?", I asked him sarcastically. He already knew what I'm up to. "I decided to stay today at home, to spend time with my fiancé. Is there something wrong about that?", he said in return with one eyebrow up. "Well, you seem to be really busy. Coming late at home is a new hobby, as I see.", I said trying to sound serious this time. "Look, I'm really sorry. It's just.. keeping me busy.", "Then what is it. I thought we are honest with each other. You are always trying to avoid this topic.". I just don't understand what is keeping him so long away from me. I know, it's work and that's how he is earning his money. But it is just really odd to me, not holding his promises. It's not something I see everyday from him.
Maybe someone new..

He looked at me and was trying to read my mind. All of a sudden I spoke too loud and I could hear myself say "There needs to be another woman, right?", I put my hands on my mouth, blushing for what I just thought out loud. "What? You think I'm cheating on you?", his eyes turned into sadness. Fuck. "No, I'm sorry. You just need to understand me too. You are leaving for work and always came home at time. Now you are coming later than expected. I'm concerned about you.", "Wow.", was the only thing, which left his mouth. I hurt him, I hurt him really bad. "I'm sorry, Stephen.". My eyes filled with water. If I cry now it is selfish off me. I created this situation and now turn myself to the victim. "If you are thinking like this of me, it's okay. But I would never in my entire life cheat on the love of my life.", with that he left the kitchen and went up to the bedroom.

I bursted out in tears. Water was now dripping down my face, like a waterfall. "I love you too.", I said under my breath.

I sat down on the chair at the garden, with some alcohol drinking more after every sip. "My life is just a big mess. Look at me.", and I started to laugh. It was already night, we did not exchanged one single word today. He was completely ignoring me. "It's all my fault." and tears were rolling down my cheeks. I stood up and walked nearer to the end of the garden and watched down to the lively city. The lights were blurring out, because of the amount of water, which was dripping down. "I don't even have a reason to live. I'm in love with my kidnapper and I will going to marry him. Funny how life works.". I looked down and the only thing I could see was darkness. It goes maybe 70 meters down, into nothing. "That looks like an option, right." and the hiccup started. I stood straight, I started to raise my arms and looked up to the stars. A star was blinking more than the others and I started to smile. Skylar. "I love you. Take good care of you. I'm going to meet Mommy now, Skylar. You hear me?" I closed my eyes and let myself free and started to fell towards.

Big strong arms were surrounding me and were pushing me back. My eyes opened and I saw Stephen in front of me. He was yelling at me, but I couldn't hear one single word. His mouth was only moving. Tear were rolling down my cheeks and I just wanted to be with my mother. I closed my eyes and I saw her beautiful face. Her icy blue eyes, black hair and perfect symmetrical face. "Darling, come with me.", I heard her saying to me. "I want too, but I couldn't I'm so sorry.". " Darling, come.", "Mom, I can't!", I yelled but she only replied again with "Darling, come." and I yelled every time the same thing. "I can't. I can't. I can't!".

I opened my eyes and Stephen was holding me, looking me deep in the eyes. I only cried and covered my whole face. He took me in a big hug and said "Everything will be fine, baby. I'm here. And I always will." with that he gave me a kiss on my head. I went down to the ground and Stephen synchronically with me.

Stephen's P.O.V

She started to scream and was holding her ears. " I can't. I can't. I can't!". What is going on with her?!  She opened her eyes and looked at me. Eva bursted out in tears and covered her face, trying to avoid the reality. I took her in a hug, making her feel safe. "Everything will be fine, baby. I'm here. And I always will be.", gave her a kiss on her head and she slowly started to bend down to the ground and I did not let go off her.

After 10 minutes sitting there on the ground and hugging Eva, she stopped crying and was just hugging me back, tightly. "Why did you wanted to kill yourself? Eva, darling.", I asked her, because seeing her in this state is making me more sad than she is. "Look at me. I only have you. And I'm also making you mad and make me hate me. Without you I'm nothing. I have nothing, except than you. I'm tired. Tired of everything. And you are also hiding things from me. I feel isolated." my heart broke hearing these words coming out of her mouth. "Baby, I would never hate you. I love you from the bottom of my heart. I mean look at me. I only have you and my sister and Ryan. You have your whole family behind you. My only family is you and Summer. Summer is the only one, from my family. I don't want to make you feel pity or anything. But you are not alone. Never.", her tiny hands were behind my back and were holding my shirt. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Stephen, I love you, I love you more than anything." , "I love you even more, baby. I would do anything for you. Even kill for you. You deserve anything in this world.", I said and I felt a raindrop on my arm. I looked up and a dark cloud was moving above us. The raindrops were getting more, but none of us stood up. I lifted her face up to me with my index finger, touching her chin. She looked at me with her puffy eyes and the only thing I did was kissing her in the rain.

I picked her up and went inside. I kissed her on her cheek and let her down. "You are wet, baby.", she looked down and her clothes and hair were all dripping wet. Afterwards, her head went up and she looked at me. "Well, you think you are dry?" and she started to laugh. After she said this I noticed my shirt and shorts were also wet. " Well then we both are wet." I said and winked at her. She boxed me on my stomach and ran away. I laughed and with that she fell to the floor. I laughed even more, because I totally forgot that she was drunk as fuck. She turned around and looked at me devilish. "Fuck you.", she said and tried to stand up again. "Well, alone is boring.", I said and smiled at her. "I don't care.", "But I do." and I ran after her. She started to scream and jumped on the couch. She threw pillows on me and really thought, she could defense herself with these. I got on top off her and looked her deep in the eyes. I kissed her and our bodies got one.

I let go and sat down next to her. "Baby, go upstairs and change your clothes. You can catch a cold.", she stood up and went straight to the stairs. "Okay, father." and threw a kiss.
I laughed and took off my shirt and was only in my shorts. I went into the kitchen and made some popcorn. After 10 minutes, I heard her little footsteps coming into the kitchen. "Uhh, popcorn. I love popcorn." she said and went into the living room. I put the popcorn into a bowl and went into the living room. "Pick a movie." , I said and she already did. "We are watching, John Wick.", she said smiling. "Ohh, so you like action as I see." , "Yes, now give the popcorn.", she said and with that took the popcorn from my hands. I laughed and sat down next to her. I carried her onto my lap and watched the movie together.

"Promise me, you will never do this again.", I said all of a sudden. She turned around and looked at me. "I'm sorry it will never happen again, I promise.". I smiled at her and gave her a kiss.