The One I Can't Help But Love (Law&Order:SVU)

I'm Still Fighting

 Elliot’s P.O.V

I have been waiting in this god damn hospital, I needed to know how my wife was doing. Was she ok? Was she safe? Dear lord i should have been quicker to catch her. My hand met with a near by wall, and a female nurse shouted at me. I sat down quickly to avoiding being taken out of the hospital.

“Mr. Stabler?” said a tall male with a metal clipboard

“Yes?” I said standing to meet his height

“Hi i’m Dr.Wilder, Mrs.Stabler’s doctor for this evening.” Wilder said as he flipped through the pages of Olivia’s medical file

“So is she ok?” I said trying not to pace

“She’s stable she should wake up in two..three hours at most. She had a concussion most likely when she hit her head against the desk and made contact with the ground. You may see her if you like.. “ Wilder said holding the metal clipboard in his hands. I nodded my head and followed him into her room. She looked so peaceful, like nothing evil in this world could touch her pure soul. My hand gently caressed her right cheek, and i felt tears sting my eyes.

“Te amo mi hermosa amor” I said

I sat  in the chair beside her bed and felt my eyes getting heavy. I had fallen asleep through what was left of the night, I had  woken up to Olivia missing from her bed. I had rushed to the nurses desk and asked where she had gone.

“Mr.Stabler!Please calm down! your wife is fine she went for a walk in the hospital.” The nurse said. I nodded before running off frantically looking for her, I had let her out of my sight again. I had looked in the hospital’s garden, nothing. I looked in the cafeteria and again hit a dead end. As I ran past the east wing of the hospital I noticed a woman looking through the glass of the newborn nursery, She was pulling at the gold necklace around her neck. I stood near her and let a sigh of relief when i realized it was my dear beloved wife.

“My whole life..I had a dream of having a fairytale wedding, marrying the love of my life...and having the happy ending with a child of our own...I murdered them both El...I shouldn't have been so stupid..I shouldn't have been looking  at my phone...and our second child...i made the stupidest choice of my life...I would do anything to take it back..”She said as she stood quiet for a moment. “I’ll be filing for divorce as soon as I get all my things packed..you can  have everything..you know a quiet and fast divorce…” She said as she placed her hand on the cold glass and let tears fall from her eyes. Her words had made me feel like my heart had just been ripped out of my chest.

“Divorce...please no Liv-” I said before she had cut me off.

“You don’t need a woman who has spent her whole life fighting her demons...i’m broken El...I reached my breaking point...and I can’t live with myself knowing every second i spend with you the more I break your heart...I love you El. I really do but I can’t let you go on like this...spending your life  trying to fix something that can’t be f-f-fixed.” She said as she began to sob letting tears rush down her cheeks. I brought her into my embrace, her head resting on my chest and her hands in fists, slowly hitting my chest.

“Hey..hey..shhh its gonna be ok..we are gonna get through this..” I said as I kissed the top of her head and continued to hold her while she sobbed into my chest. Olivia was a strong, brave, independent  woman, but she needed my help. I wasn't about to let her down, she wasn’t alone any longer.

HOURS LATER:

“Hey fin.” I said into my work phone, “So do you know who called Liv?” . “Fin come on spit it out….no I won’t do anything. Come on man just tell  me already!.....Son of a bitch. I fucking knew it!” i said as i quickly hung up and calmly walked back into Olivia’s room.