It had to be you

Fixing things

I wake up to a horrendous headache and that's when I slowly start getting flashbacks from yesterday night. I quickly realize what had happened that night and I can't help but feel a bit guilty. I mean Sky definitely deserved that punch but it might have not been the smartest thing to do. Fuck it, I was literally drunk and angry so what did they expect me to do. Just sit there and pretend like nothing happened?

I quickly put on some random clothes and head to Sky's room. The least I can do is to talk to him and fix things between the two of us. When I reach his room I knock on the door and he says that I can come in. He looks at me quite shocked, as if he didn't expect me to come here.

- "Hey I just want to sort things out, and sorry for your nose by the way" I say a bit hesitant

- "Wow you're apologizing? That's new"

- "I didn't lie when I said that I tried working on myself" I say annoyed

- "Sorry you're right, we're bros after all and I'm not gonna stay mad at you for some stupid fight" I hear Sky say

- "Thanks"

- "You should maybe talk to Brandon though, I don't think he's too happy about yesterday"

Fuck, I had totally forgotten about him. I mean I really have nothing to apologize for. He was the one who got mad at me out of nowhere. Well the least we can do is to talk to him I guess.

- "Alright i will, I have nothing to apologize for though" I say while I roll my eyes

- "Yeah yeah, just go and talk to him"

I walk out of Sky's room and I head straight to Brandon's room to go and talk to him. When I knock on the door I see Stella opening it.

- "Hey can I talk to Brandon?"

- "Oh yeah sure, I don't know if he will want to though" she says while letting me in the room

I see Brandon sitting on his bed and he stares dead into my eyes. I wonder why he got so mad. Well I guess I'll have to find out.

- "Hey could we talk about what happened yesterday?"

- "You're wondering why I am mad, right?"

- "Uhm well yeah?"

- "I guess you really don't get it huh?"

- "What do you mean? Just get to the point man"

- "You see, when you left Musa was pretty heartbroken, she did understand you thought and why you had left but she was still quite upset"

- "Yeah I get that, but that still doesn't explain why you got so mad" I say

- "Listen Riven, you weren't here. You don't know how much this actually effected her. Me and the others have been with her through it all and we know what damage you caused. I really don't want to see her that hurt ever again, none of us want that.

- "How was she like...?"

Brandon sat there for minutes explaining to me how me leaving effected Musa. I felt really bad, I mean I didn't think we would've worked out if I had stayed. I needed the time to find myself and I also needed the time to become a better version of me. Even if it meant to hurt the person I loved the most. Brandon went on and told me how the first two months were the absolute worst. She wouldn't want to do anything fun and would mostly like to be left alone. Although, later she started to go out with the others. Brandon also mentioned how she would tell him how she felt since he would notice her being down while the others didn't. I guess that's why he got so mad. He also mentioned that they tried setting her up with some dudes in hope that she would forget about me. Damn thanks a lot guys. No but I get why they did that, they all wanted her to be happy after all. She was apparently never interested in any of the guys they tried setting her up with so she kinda started to try dating on herself. They were all very happy and excited for her but even her choosing her dates didn't help. She was just never interested enough. I can't help but feel a little happy that she didn't like any of them, even though it must have been really annoying and frustrating for her. Brandon continued to talk and he told me that she eventually started becoming happy. Not because she had found someone else or had moved on, but the fact that her friends always were there for her. She had told him that she finally understood how much they make her happy and that she felt much better, she just had to get used to me being gone. Either way, she would still think about me and get sad about it from time to time.

- "Thank you for telling me, and I really get why you're mad now. But trust me I love her and I wouldn't want to hurt her again" I say

- "Riven, all of us know that you love her, but loving someone is sometimes not enough" he sighs

- "I promise I'll try, I just want her to be mine again"

- "Listen I know but give it more time, don't rush things. You could even take her out on a date or something"

- "I'm not really the romantic type of dude"

- "I know but we all know that you can be when you try"

- "Alright I'll try" I say while walking out of the room

I head back to the room that I share with Helia. Hmm I don't see him there, it's fine he's probably with Flora. I should maybe talk to Musa as well later. I just don't know what to say.