Warnings/Mentions: Depression, Bullying
AUTOPHOBIA - Fear of not being loved.
(PLAY WHEN TOLD TO)
(NOT PROOFREAD)
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I had 3 best friends, we met in secondary/high school.
Their names were Bree, Amber and Naomi.
Bree and I were the closest, we were so close that we were like sisters but that all changed when I got with vinnie.
•••
Vinnie was my brother's friend, they were kinda close, so he came over to our house a lot.
He was the most attractive guy in the school and all the girls would fall for him.
I thought he was quite attractive too.
I wasn't nerdy or quiet, I was actually popular well I hanged out with popular people, which are my best friends.
However, some of the girls at my school hated me because vinnie and I would see each other most of the time at each other's houses.
*at my house*
"Hey y/n, whatchu doing?" Vinnie said as he sat down next to me.
"Watching a show." I said.
"What show?" He smiled.
"13 reasons why, and where is my brother?"
"He went out to get some stuff." He said as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
Fast forward ⏩ , we ended up kissing.
I know it was sudden but it just happened.
We didn't confirm our relationship but we hanged out a lot more then we did before.
People started to notice which made more ppl hate me.
-timeskip-
I was walking down the outside of the school, were we had our breaks.
I saw Bree, Naomi and Amber standing there chatting.
I smiled as I walked up to them.
"Hey guys!" I smiled cheerfully.
They ignored me but Amber gave me a 'sorry' look.
"Anyways, I heard that there is a party coming soon and I heard that your hosting it." I said to Bree.
"Mhm." She smiled briefly.
I could see that her smile wasn't genuine.
"Uh-, and I heard that people already got invites." I said as I showed her the invite I had in my hand.
"Who gave you that?" She furrowed her eyebrows as she snatched the invite out of my hand and ripped it up.
"Wha- why did you do that?!"
"Because i didn't invite you."
"Oh, okay."
*before the party*
I stayed home because I had nowhere to go obviously.
I heard a knock on my door and got up to answer it.
I checked through the peephole to see vinnie.
I opened the door.
"Hey vinnie, i didn't have the best day today so ca-" he quickly cut me off by giving me a long, warm hug.
"I saw what happened y/n, so I decided to stay over here for a bit." He smiledreassuringly.
"Aww, thank you vinnie.. that's like really nice of you." I got butterflies, he actually cared.
-timeskip-
"Oh fuck!" Vinnie groaned.
"What?" I asked.
"My brother said that I need to- ugh it's a long story but I need to go!" He rushed as he gave me a kiss on the cheek.
*next week*
It was break, I walked up to my 'best friends' and smiled as I walked up to them.
"Hey guys! Do you guys wanna go to Starbucks later today?"
They ignored me and I repeated myself.
"We heard you the first time!" Bree snapped at me.
"Oh okay, sorry."
-play song-
"Why do you try so hard?" I was confused.
I teared up a bit.
"Calm down, Bree. She is literally your best friend." Amber said as Naomi watched.
"She isn't my best friend.." Bree said coldly.
I took a final look at her and walked away.
I skipped the rest of my classes and went for a walk.
I stumbled soon to see vinnie.
"Hey vinnie!" I leaned in for a kiss but he pushed me away.
My smile dropped.
"Vinnie, what's wrong?" I asked.
"Y/n, don't get upset but I never really liked you, I just liked the feeling of being with somebody." He uttered.
I choked back on my tears and nodded as I walked away.
Then, I woke up...
