Without You

Chapter 3: Jealous

It's been a few days since I've last seen or spoken to Mickey. After the kiss, she just stared at me and walked out on me. I don't know what it is but I cannot get my mind off that kiss. I want to forget it but it truly meant something. And no matter what, there's no denying it from either of us.

Though it was wrong, it felt so right. I just can't help but to feel guilty. She's my bestfriend and I never want for anything to come between us, I also never wanted to come between her and Nicole's relationship. I just want more. I feel lust, which I want.. I need it and crave it, especially since that kiss with her..

I traced my finger across my lips, reminiscing about the kiss when my phone had rung, interrupting my thoughts or as I should say.. Fantasy.

Mickey's calling.. What do I do? Do I answer? Cause God knows how much I want to hear her voice right now. Or do I ignore her? I'm confused. And nervous.

Forget it. " Yo. You working today? " She asked as soon as I'd answered.

" Um, I just got o-off. W-Why? " Relax Star. It's just Mickey.

" Let me swoop you up, " I heard her sigh but her voice remained calm. " I want to talk. "

My heart began to pound. Oh shit.. " Umm... Sure. I'll be ready. " I said a little too uneasy.

" Don't worry, it's nothing big... I miss you. " Just hearing those words come out of her mouth made me blush and instantly feel happy.

" Alright, come pick me up. I'm ready. "

" I'll be there. "

I jumped up from my bed and put on my black combat boots with peach, blue, and pink flowers on it and my lace black leather jacket before grabbing my peach colored Kors bag.

I honestly don't know what's going to go down this time. I don't even know what I want anymore. I sure don't want anyone who has a girl..

I heard Mickey beep her horn from outside as I ran down my stairs. I kissed my mother goodbye after hearing her complain about my father working late, for the trillionth time. Ain't nothing new so I don't know why she stressing it. As smart as she is, I wouldn't be surprised if she suspected him of cheating. Ain't heard that bed board hitting the wall in a minute. Something gotta be keeping his ass busy.

I walked to the car in a hurriedly pace. Mickey had been standing in front of the passenger side door holding it open for me. She closed the open space between us and just stared at me for a minute. I felt my face flush and I glanced down at my boots. She's been making me so nervous lately.

I felt her lift my chin up. She looked at me in my eyes before kissing my forehead and pulling me in close for a hug. A really long hug. I couldn't help but hug her back. A couple moments later of inhaling her scent and hoping this would last longer, she pulled away.

" Come on ma. " She said putting her arm on top of the car as she watched me get in.

A few minutes later, we were driving through Peachtree street and I couldn't help but gaze over to Mickey. Something about her was just off. Something had been bothering her.

" Pull over real quick. " I said.

She looked at me and pulled over to the right where there'd been a free parking space. She sighed.

" What's wrong Mick? " I said turning toward her.

" There's something that's been bothering me.. " She looked out her window. " Nikki's been cheating on me. " She blurted out looking at me.

My eyes bucked. " What?! With who?! " I yelled angrily. That bitch!

" I don't know for sure. I just feel like it. The way she ignores her phone when I'm around or walks out of the room to answer her phone. I'm not dumb, I know what it is, I just feel like something is a little off this time. I'm tired of being cheated on.. I've been the cheater when it was necessary but other than that, when a shorty being loyal and honest with me AND the sex bomb, what the fuck I look like cheating? " She said, now looking at me.