Hurts like hell

Why me?

Warnings
1) Self harm
2) Angst
3) Blood
4)Eating disorders
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bold= thoughts

Shu's POV

I went into the bathroom with the knife🔪 and put it on my wrists and slit my wrists. The blood trickled down and fell on the floor as I thought Is that it. It doesn't hurt at all actually it feels......... good. At that I started cutting more and more until it started to actually sting. By now I had 17 cuts on my right hand and 23 on my left. I then cleaned my hand and all the blood that was on the floor. I didn't bother treating the scars or cuts. I put on some clothes cause I had none on. I then came out of the bathroom and suddenly my eyes fell on an apple🍎 that I probably kept there to eat afterwards, but something unexpected happened as soon as I saw the apple I felt like vomiting so I ran to the bathroom and vomited and I had took the apple with me I threw it out the window. After I came out of the bathroom all the pain and sorrow was still there and... for a moment I had those thoughts of jumping from window or hanging myself were there but that would gain attention I don't want that to happen let's just rott myself in here that'll be the best.

Time skip to again at the team festivals

Regular's POV

After what happened Shu didn't come out of his dorm even once not to even eat and he wasn't able to sleep. He was addicted to self-harm. He used to have panic attacks atleast thrice every day. Shu trained in his dorm only to the extent that he wouldn't stop until his body had been pushed way to far from its limits from where it wouldn't even move to this far that blood flowed down and the veins could burst any moment and he couldn't keep his consciousness and collapsed on the stadium or near it. Actually that was the only time he got any rest.

In the team battles it was Valt's turn to battle and he won.

Free's POV

Okay it's now or never do it Free you can do it. I said to myself as I walked up to the announcer. Everyone stared at me confused. I asked the announcer for his mic and he gave it to me. I than spoke up "I know this may seem odd but Valt I love you with all my heart and would do anything for you. I swear I would try my best and keep you happy. So Valt will you be my boyfriend.". By now Valt had tears streaming down his face as he ran up to me and hugged me and shouted "Yes I would, THANK YOU I am so happy".  That's it I am the happiest person on the Earth now I and Valt are together it's a dream come true.

Back in Spain where Shu was watching all this on his Television.

Shu's POV

He said YES well guess makes sense who would love someone like me. I am just worthless, weak, stupid, a faggot, freak, waste of space, ugly if I die today no one will dare to care. I deserved it. He deserves better even if he accepted me with all those bad things, who would expect someone who has been raped. I thought as tears stream down my face.

The next week at spain

Regular POV

Shu had finally come out as TG threatened him if he didn't than he would leak the video

Free's POV

I and Valt were sitting in my bed in my dorm cuddling. I was thinking about how should I tell him about this but I had to. "Hey, Valt" he replied with a hum indicating he was listening. "I am leaving BC Sol and going to Raging bulls in America. I'm sorry I wish I could've have had stayed here but I promise to be back soon more like right after the world league ends so please promise me you will wait and won't do anything stupid. We can call and chat everyday and night is our time anyway so we will still be with each other. Valt looked at him sad at first but soon a smile came over as he said "I'll wait and I known you won't lie so you can go and promise you'll call everyday and the whole night. I smiled at his enthusiasm "I promise" I said as I kissed him after that we did 'it' and ofcourse we had eachother's consent. We both switched our position so that both of us got the chance (yeah Valt ain't not so innocent he is also you know he deserves to be a top to.). After that I got ready and he helped me pack but he was sending the entire kitchen with me and I had to stop him. Soon a car had arrived and it took me after I wished everyone BYE I can see Valt was sad but he is still holding on everyone was sad and so was I but it will be over soon I will come back soon. With that I left.

Timeskip to when he arrived in America
(still free's pov)

I saw TG who was waiting there for me of course I had took a flight here it's far you know. TG took me to Raging bulls with his security. Wow!! what a show off to keep so much security. As he entered the training area the first person he saw after entering was an albino with pale white skin was exercising just near the door. At first he didn't know it was Shu but than he heard TG say "Ahh.. What a luck! Shu is here I will introduce you to him and he can show you around as he pointed at the albino. Oh do this is Shu Kurenai he is kinda pale, skinny boy, does he even eat. Blahhh... why does it matter it's not like I care I am here to show him his place, but still. So outta curiosity I ask TG "Does he even eat?" he looks at me and then says "Guess so by judging that he is still alive. I have seen him eat really rarely maybe teenage figure maintaining and things but some times the cook forces him to eat. Eventhough he literally eats very less like some spoons and he is full upon that those spoons maybe big in size but he only fills them at baby bites amount it's like that from the start of the bulls so don't bother, but that doesn't mean you can take him lightly even if he eats this less he is a power bag of strategies, power and timing and a little to much innocent and kind that he is ready to die for a person's happiness. He will do anything for others to be happy except for stop beyblading or give up on his dream of defeating Lui Shirasaugijo. Oh but he rarely talks and you have to be his friend to receive the luxury I told you about before and due to his anti-sociality it's hard to be his friend cause he will only talk to the extent that he is being polite and well-mannered or if you have any work with him or he has any work with you." Oh so he is the good yet anti-social type guy a tough one for others but it's not like I care anyway. We went up to him.

Shu's POV

I saw TG and ........FREE! walking up to me What the hell is all I could think I was scared of TG as it already is as he still touches me in that way but now Free to he probably hates me. No, think positive Shu maybe he doesn't know maybe Valt didn't understand when I said it. Even if he knows Shu conceal don't feel. Ok just be normal calm down....... ok I am normal well let's start new afterall it's all just a few days thing then I'll be gone anyway. They walked up to me and as the good boy I am I bowed as for respecting them and as you already know I am good at hiding my emotions and fake smiling I did that. I tell you my eyes sting from the regular crying and so does my body due to those untreated but well hidden scars which are taking more time self-healing and I just keep increasing the scats in many ways and they are more everyday then they already were. TG spoke up "Hey Shu, meet-" I cut him off by saying "Free de la hoya the current world's number 1 blader who announced his crush and asked him out during team battles and is currently in a relationship. It's an honour to meet you. I am Shu kurenai" I said showing gratitude. "Yeah I know you Valt yold me abiut you and so did Honcho O guess we should talk a little after this shouldn't we." Free said in a tone that made Shu realise that Free knew about his crush and this wasn't gonna be positive. Oh no. Is all could think. TG then put arms around Shu and rubbed it seductively making Shu uncomfortable but it went unnoticed by everyone else. TG spoke still doing what he was doing "Shu show Free around and lead him to his dorm and I authorise you to Shu help him settling down and help him around until he doesn't adjust to the environment around here, okay". I had no choice but to say "Okay". "Good now go." he said as he let me go. FINALLY!! he then walked away. I'm glad he did as soon as he left I sighed with relief and let out a breathe I didn't know I was holding. I actually forgot Free was here. Then I heard a "Ahem" and I realised what I just did and Oh shit! I apologized and than showed him around, lastly we arrived at the dorms area my dorm is the last one of all and don't know why but my form is a little far from other dorms than usual so yeah, acciry to my info his is second last and the same goes for his dorm to but the gap between his and others is lesser then mine alot less I tell you. I showed him my dorm from his dorms front saying if he needed anything he could just come there and ask me if he needs anything. Then I showed him his dorm and took the keys which I had to handover to him I opened it and gave him the key but before I could go he pushed me hard due to which I fell inside his dorm. Ouch this hurts! but I didn't make a sound as I am prone to pain he came in and locked the door and kept the keys in his pocket. By now I was sitting. He then.........
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Words of story without intro or outro: 1871

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