It Had to be You

five

"Yes sir, on my way up now," I say getting up mind spinning heart beating a mile a minute.

"Y/n we need to discuss last night," He said sternly as he sat down in his chair.

"Sir, as I explained to everyone else it was just a misunderstanding, Evan had too much to drink he apologized immediately he would never intentionally do that," I say taking a seat across from him. I knew it was a lie, I knew enjoyed humiliating me, but he wouldn't do it in public like that, he hates being embarrassed.

"Look, I know that's what you want to believe and all but to be honest, with everything that I've witnessed I think he enjoys it. The bruises and the making you walk home, calling you names was just the tip of the ice burg, I cannot let abuse happen to a coworker and not report it," he says leaning over his desk interlacing his fingers.

"Hotch, your kidding right, I am completely fine, you have no right to do that," I say standing up slightly raising my voice. I had been under Evan's constant control for almost 2 years now and Hotch was not going to be someone else to control me, I am going to break.

"All due respect Y/n I have every right to report it, and it's better if you're calm," he said standing up walking over to the other side of the desk, and resting against it.

"And all due respect to you, you don't know shit! You think you know me, you think you know us, you can't help Hotch. I can't leave, he is the only one that will love me! I need you to get that through your thick skull Hotch it's not abuse okay. And even it is, what can you actually do? Huh?!" I yelled at him I put all my anger into those words, I had more to give but I knew I would start crying and I really didn't wanna cry.

"Y/n why would that be love, why would he be the only one who could love you, because he said so? Because you haven't had anyone else show you real love? Look I know your mad and sad and confused but you have to leave, it's not safe and you can take all that rage out on me if you want but, leave him please for the love of God it isn't healthy," He said looking deep into my eyes.

"HOTCH!! I CANT LEAVE! If I try it's only going to be worse, I said okay and now it's all down hill," oh great here come the tears, "He'll hurt me or himself and I can't do that. I am not worthy of other people love Aaron," I say falling down to my knees face in hands.

"Oh Y/n, you are so worthy of love, look at me," he says gripping my chin lightly pulling my face up.

I move my eyes to his, his dark brown eyes were filled with compassion, staring directly into me, "Hotch I don't know what to do," I say my lip quivering.

"Go home for now, get some rest, think about everything I said and we'll talk tomorrow, okay?" He says.

"Okay," I say standing up with his guidance, but as I go to leave he pulls me close. Into a hug. At first I was confused but quickly melted into his embrace, "Thank you Hotch," I say moving back.

"I'm always here Y/n", he says as I walk off.

Aaron's Pov
After she left I just replayed the way she said my name in my head over and over "not worthy of anyone's love Aaron," the hurt in her voice as she fell. The way she said my name, she never called me that, not unless something was very wrong. I could feel all the pain that son of a bitch caused her, and I knew that I was going to hurt him. Sooner or later he was getting what he deserved. She is amazing and the fact that that asshole has so much control on her mind sickens me.

After sulking in the office for a while I headed home to relieve some stress. I knew that Jack was at Haley's and would have some time for a drink with a friend.

Once I was home I called Emily, as much as we didn't show it, we both enjoyed similar things, sex, alcohol, deep conversations, and most of all the feeling of love. She was one of the only people who truly understood me. I'm sure if given the chance, Y/n would understand me too. She's so intelligent and I can she has a devilish side but she can't show it because of how much weight that asshat Evan puts on her shoulders. I heard a knock on the door pulling me from thought, must be Emily. And sure enough there she was with a bottle of the good stuff.

I grabbed some glasses from the kitchen and brought them to the coffee table in the living room, "So... how did it go?" she asks pouring two glasses of bourbon.

"Emily the pain in her eyes, she called me 'Aaron', she doesn't do that. It's bad." I say taking a sip of my drink.

"Oh Hotch, she will make the right decision, she has to,"

"Em you didn't see what I did, didn't hear the things she said, I really want to hurt him. He deserves hell."

"Well as much as I agree she has to want the help, I know you did what you could,"

"I know thanks for this," I say finishing my glass.

"Why don't we have some more and get your mind off of that, I have some old movies in the car," she says pouring us some more.

"That sounds amazing Emily thanks,"

"Anytime Hotch," she says.

Y/n's Pov
As I drove home I relived every moment in Hotch's office, the crying screaming and most of all that hug. He held me so tight. It was the most pure hug I've ever felt. Evan hasn't hugged me in months, it was so nice. But I had a decision to make and if I do leave, what is he going to do...

A/N: So I may or may not have written this and the last chapter today in school but that's okay because I been having writers block but I'm back 😏 Sooo yeah i may put out chapter six today or tomorrow so look out.