Loving Coffee

Sometimes people find out

It had been three days since James and me had been to the art studio but i didn't care because i was busy doing other things at the point. I had to start worrying about school again because i let my grades to drop not bad but enough we're if I didn't pick up the slack I would fail most of my classes. That is how I ended up at school at 7:15 on a Monday morning I was busy doing math homework waiting until the bell rang for everybody to go to first period. When it did finally ring I started walking to my first period which was art as I was walking people kept looking at me an whispering to the people they were walking with I just kept my head down and kept walking. This had been happening ever since I started dating James I would hear things like "Why would James go out with something that looks like that" and sometimes things worse then that but I tried to ignore it but it started it get hard so at school I would avoid James so he wouldn't start to be made fun of. That is how today went but it got worse because if James came up to talk to me I would run off and I felt so bad about it but I had to.

After school I went home and I locked my self up in my room I had enough so I went for the first thing I had every time something like this happened, my razor, I knew it was bad but I felt like it helped me I know that sounds stupid but it's true and I don't know why. I haven't showed any body and I don't plan on it either. I was currently sitting on my bathroom counter cutting deep red gashes on my wrists and on my thighs I knew I would have to cover them up real we'll tomorrow but I didn't care as long as cutting helped me I would keep on doing.

It was now Tuesday after school and me and James were sitting on my bed talking about random shit but we both loved hanging out together so we didn't care what we talked about. " Hey Court we're is your bathroom." I was having such a great time I forgot I didn't put my razors up " oh it's right through there." I pointed to my bathroom "oh ok thanks" he walked in there and after a minute he came out crying and he held up my razor "Courtney? What is this?" He looked so upset and my smile fell "oh my god I completely forgot about that James I am so sorry I was going to tell you but I didn't know how." I started crying also I got up and walked over to him but he backed up away from me "No I am going to leave" he said " I need to think about all of this let it settle in" he out my razor on my dresser and walked out after a while I heard him drive off and I fell on my bed crying.

It had been a few days since James found my razor and I haven been crying my self to sleep ever since then not caring who heard it. I was walking to my 8th period class when I felt a hand on my shoulder "Princess??" I sighed as I figured out who it was and I turned around "yeah?" He looked upset but he smiled "Can I come over to your house today I want to talk" I looked back up at him and slightly nodded my head "o....ok" I turned around with out saying another word and I went to my last period of the day before I went home and waited for James to come over and talk to me.