Random Thoughts And Drawings

Vent art

(trigger warning! Mentions of attempted s//c/d/

Vent art. Six months ago my boyfriend broke up with me to be with his best friend. Im still impacted by it because I found out a lot of things after that. I also had gotten overly attached to him, and when he broke up with me he explained why. He told me all of my flaws, and everything he didnt like, then everything he needed. After he left me I tried to jump off a mountain. I was grabbed before I could fully walk off. After a couple of days my friends told me that he had been toxic, and now, I realize he was. He wasnt there when I was upset, and the day after he broke up with me he got with his best friend. He's caused me so many mental problems, some that I dont think ill ever get over. His name triggers me whenever I see it, and it doesnt help that he randomly pops up and acts so happy. And it hurts to see that hes happy, that hes better without me. My friends started something called Guard Duty. I cant be left alone because my mind drifts off. I have a new boyfriend, and hes better in every way. He cares, hes there for me, and hes more present in my life. Im so grateful for him and I love him more than anything. One of my friends told me too do vent art, to get out my emotions. And yeah, it helps so much. Its not quote what I imagined at first, but I did do my best. Also, sorry for putting this on yall. I know it sounds like a sob story or whatever, but I get my emotions out when I type. My therapist recently moved to a different area so I havent been able to see them. I dont know if anybody has read this out fully, but if you have, thank you. Thank you for listening to my thoughts.