Little Red

Two

Its been a long hard stressful emotional 4 years. Im officionally glad too say that I have my business degree that I've dreamed of since I were younger. Your probably wondering how I ended up here after my near death experience 4 years ago in that ally. Well truth be told I don't actually remember anything after storming out of the club my friends and I were at that night. I remember eye twitch Harrison and the slendermen twins as I called them but besides that I have no clue how I ended up shot, bleeding too death in that ally, im not sure if I even wanna remember if im honest. I woke up 4 days after my almost death in the hospital. I got told I was found shot in wall rose Street but I have no clue why I was there or how I was shot. I remember madi coming into the hospital room to see me she looked a mess she looked like she hadn't slept in weeks. She just sat and cried staring at me telling me how sorry she was that she ditched me for a random guy and she feels like a shitty friend and she should have left with me. I told her its was ok I mean how were we suppose too know my fate that night. I do believe everything happens for a reason. Maybe there was a reason for this to have happened but I mean I don't know. So yes 4 years later I still have amnesia when it comes too the second part of that night and im kinda glad I don't think I wanna remember that. I've been too a few psychologists they have all said that everyone's brain reacts different too trauma but my brain found the best way too cope with my trauma for me was too just block it out and not let any memories through which im not complaining about like I said I don't want too remember. I moved out of my home town too move too another city after the shooting too attend university  but my mother persisted that before I left I had too take some self defence classes and she also persisted that I have  Peper spray with me all the time. Its nice that she cares but its kinda over the top sometimes but I appreciate my mother non the less.

I've been applying for some intern jobs for a few weeks now I've been declined so many since I lack experience. I thought the whole point of an apprentice is too learn on the job? But not too worry there are a few interviews I have for next week for different company's. Most being insurance company's and some publishing company's which sounds more up my street. So now its just the waiting game hopefully someone will accept me soon.

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7 interviews. 7 interviews this week and not 1 have been successful. Im so stressed its unbelievable. I have 1 more interview tomorrow. 1 last try before I seriously think about giving up with my choice of career. Who knew business internships would be so hard too find. I thought I was doing the right thing, making the right choice when I studied business ethics at uni. Im now slowly regretting it. My interview tomorrow is for a publishing company. Im excited for this interview its what I've always strived to be. I've always wanted too own a publishing company. I love too read books and write too. During school my favourite subject too learn was English literature. I've decided too do some preparing tomorrow. I've wrote down a few questions too ask and I've learnt some facts about this company online. Its best too do your research before attending and interview for a new job, they like it when you do this stuff it makes you look keen.

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Im woke up by my alarm going off this morning. I deliberately set it for 5.30am so I could have some extra time too prepare for my interview this morning at 11am. As I open my eyes too turn my alarm off I am almost blinded by the sharp Ray of sunshine peeking threw my apartment window. I love summer in New York.  I step out of my bed leaving my soft linen sheets too open my window, letting in the smell of the early summer morning engulf my senses. I love the smell of early morning air from outside. I decided too take a shower this morning even tho I did bathe last night I wanted too feel and look fresh as fresh as possible. Once I showered I went and made myself some breakfast and some herbal tea. Im not much of a coffee drinker it doesn't really give me the typical 'caffeine buzz' like it does for other it kinda does the oposite too me. I made myself some pancakes and syrip too have for breakfast while I go over my notes for todays interview. By the time 9.30am comes i am dressed and well groomed for today, wearing a simple black pair of trousers and a white dress shirt with a black cropped blazer, leaving my blonde locks down I decided too curl them alittle. Im scared for today I guess im just nervous that I will be let down again but I have too keep positive. Its around an hours drive from my apartment in Brooklyn too the publishing company. I called a cab and left my apartment locking up before hand. I like my apartment its cozy not too big its simple just like me I guess. Its not too much but its home, my home and I've grown too love being on my own even tho I miss my mom and little brother alot.