Try again {grixie}

Breakups

Dixie pov

Some breakups are sad and make you want to cry into your pillow at night while watching euphoria and eating all the junk food you can find. Yeah i've been there, done that, probably wouldn't do it again.

But getting back to the topic, for some reason this breakup was different. Instead of feeling sad and heartbroken i was thrilled. Don't get me wrong i loved noah and still do, i don't regret our relationship at all. What i do regret is not giving myself time to properly heal from my last one. I didn't give myself the freedom i needed after i ended things with griffin.

Before i get to far ahead of myself let me take you back to this morning when all of this started.

THAT MORNING

"Dixie all i ask is that you actually listen to me." Noah said again cutting me off for the fifth time this morning.

"You don't even give me a chance to speak." I say attitude ringing in my tone. "So why should i listen to you?" I say walking into the kitchen.

"I just don't want you going to that party tonight and you know why." Noah said as i started to make my coffee

"This is way too important for me to miss because your ego is hurt." I say pouring a little creamer in my coffee.

"Wow so you're going to put a party over your boyfriend. How selfish." He said rolling his eyes as i simply chuckled.

"So let me get this straight, me not wanting to miss my bestfriends engagement party is selfish?" I say taking my hands off of my hips and throwing them in the air annoyed.

"Because he's going to be there, my feelings are valid." Noah tells me as i drink my coffee.

He look at me as i just stare in his face obviously irritated. My body language said it all, i was livid with him.

"You want me to miss my bestfriends engagement party because my ex will be there and you're jealous? But im the selfish one here." I say as i sat my coffee down and crossed my arms.

It was so disgusting to me that he wouldn't even trust me to be faithful to him.

"All im hearing is you don't trust me and that fucking hurts." I say as he moves closer to me.

"I trust you i just don't trust him." He says which makes me scoff.

Anyone with common sense knows that line just means that 'oh yeah i definitely don't trust you to not give into temptations of that person/ i don't trust that you'll hold your own.'

"Sure, anyways i don't know why we're even arguing about this because im going end of discussion." I say as i start to walk away before a hand pulls me back.

"You know what dixie if we can't respect eachother then i think we should break up." He says to me which for a second, just a little bitty second broke me. Yeah it hurt like a bitch at first but i won't let him know that. I promised i would never let a man get the satisfaction of seeing me hurt again.

"I agree with you." I say calmly.

"I know you might not- wait what?" He says a confused look appears on his face.

"I said that i agree with you, we should break up it's for the best." I say as i feel my heart break a little by looking at the pain that stretched across his face.

"Okay well i'll get my stuff and then head out, we're still friends right?" He says looking at me hopefully.

"Of course, we're good." I say which leads to him heading to my room to get his stuff.

And that was the end of us.

Now

Unfortunately paparazzi caught noah leaving my apartment with all of his things.
Now my phone was blowing up as i read all the tiktokroom comments about noah confirming us breaking up. Some of the comments were mean, some were happy, and some were sad.

I had cried at first but then soon i started crying tears of relief. I didn't feel the pressure of a relationship anymore. I felt free.

"Hey dix, how are you feeling?" I heard the voice of a certain makeup artist.

"I actually feel amazing avani." I say a genuine smile on my face.

"That's good but now it's time to get ready." She says pulling me out of bed and heading straight to my closet.

Extra notes

hi so i am so excited for this story i don't really have an updating schedule but i have a few chapters pre written so im going try to update once or twice a day. this story will get better as we go along and the chapters will be longer the first two chapters just give you a basic what's to come.

this book will only be about twenty chapters long because im also making another grixie book that will be long.

also songs will kinda be chosen based off which one i listened to most while writing.

love you all!