↳ 𝘸𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴

xxx

i took care of myself!
momma seethes.
i took care of myself and i took care of my children.
and it wasn't beautiful.
i looked the overdue bills in the face,
even though it hurt.

i took care of myself and cried ugly through the therapy session,
but i made another appointment for next week.

i put in the work and wrote all the bad memories in detail.
i apologized to my daughter and my son
who i didn't have the energy to raise for the past two years,
but i never once left their side.

i cut off all my dead ends and bought produce, simply avoiding sustaining myself on barbecue chips and vodka.

i recycled.

i set an alarm for eight hours of sleep each night. no more, no less.

i took care of myself
and it wasn't bubble baths,
bath and bodyworks lotion,
or three cheese pizzas.

it was uncomfortable.

it wasn't beautiful.
but i am.
and my daughter is.
and my son is.
and goddamnit, my family is!