Behind the scenes

Different (SH's POV)

VII. When Sehun knew he's in for a long ride...
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Growing up in the public eyes at such a young age I knew all my actions will be watched and be judged but that did not stop me from enjoying my youth. When I say 'enjoy' that includes dating, and just because I'm an idol it doesn't mean that I don't get to enjoy what people at my age usually does. I just need to be discreet and extra extra careful.

I dated a number of idols, models, actresses and I even had a chance to date women outside of my industry.
The thrill of not getting caught what really excites me, and meeting and getting to know a lot of girls added to that fun. There are moments too that I thought that this woman is 'the one' and every single time that I'd decide to take it to another level a strong force will pulled me off; there's something else is missing.

You think I had it easy? Yes, with the girls I dated but not with my hyungs.
In every group meetings, I was always on the agenda and they coined it 'operation: OSH protection' but don't get fooled ladies and gentlemen – it's actually how to tamed OSH. They were nice enough to use another term for that.

When I say I was always on the agenda, I always get to hear:

Suho: Sehun, please be careful. And please don't get caught. I'm begging you.
Xiumin: I'm scared that we raising a devil in the guise of an angel.
Baekhyun: When I was at your age I only dated 2 girls...
Lay: Yaaah! If you're playing too much now I don't when will karma bites you back.
Chen: We're not stopping you to meet women at your age but please slow it down. Spend your energy wisely.
Kyungsoo: Sehun-ah, just be careful , okay?. Don't play too much of with their feelings.
Chanyeol: I'm going to look forward to the day that I'm going to say 'I told you so'...
Kai: I don't know with you man. I'll just pray that the girl that is destined to you is strong and understanding enough.

I appreciate the gesture of my hyungs constantly reminding me but as a young man with looks and influence I always put it at the back of my head and just continue with my routine discreetly. You can say I had that moment of being an egotistic. Was I proud of it? Of course not, but I don't regret it cause you know why?

It led me to her.

It was in 2017 when I received the offer to be part of the main cast of a Netflix variety show and the company thought that it was a good idea to 1) keep the popularity of  EXO, and 2) well, to keep me busy (and I think you know why hehehe). It actually worked. I was kept busy and there's not a lot of time to roam and play around.

And little did they know it was already a start for me, really, to have an introspection.

At first, it was just an admiration like she's really cute and friendly. Everyone in the team adores her as she is not shy to talk to the opposite sex and joke around with them. I thought this little admiration will not escalate into something bigger, but man I was wrong. The time I spent with her on and off cam was an opportunity for me to get to know her deeper and also has allowed me get to know myself better.

It's just different when I'm with her. Sejeong makes me feel that I can be better, that I am worthy to be loved, and that I can be me. Just let me borrow the lines in Aladdin OST
'now I'm here in a whole new world with you'.

I could write thousands things about
Sejeong and that will take us more than a day. since I'm proud of her let me share with you a thing or two reasons why I am 100% sure I'm in this for a looooong ride.

Sejeong really loves food and would always sneak in snacks in between shoots; she's a big eater. Even though she's a big eater she prefers her snacks simple and classy: pringles original and m&ms crispies for snacks, home-cooked food for meals, and just water for drink. She's a smart woman but gets shy when she's put on the spot. She's a hard worker, passionate, and sensitive to needs of others. She's funny, my happy pill, my karma.