Pre-Plant (SJ's POV)

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IV. When Sejeong received the news for her 1st mini album - Plant.
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A year ago when my company called me after the successful release of Flower Way and told me that I need to prepare for my 1st mini album to drop the next year - I felt indifferent

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A year ago when my company called me after the successful release of Flower Way and told me that I need to prepare for my 1st mini album to drop the next year - I felt indifferent. While I am happy that they recognized my hard work I'm a bit hesitant to do so. Wanna know why? It's because they haven't told us yet when is the plan comeback of Gu9udan. Right now, my priority is our group but apparently my company thinks otherwise. It's like being torn between two lovers. It's my dream to create a solo album but the timing is not right.  I am also aware the hate I'm getting inside my fandom. I read them even though they told me not to. I've been hearing a lot from people that I'm getting too much attention, I am the priority, too much exposure, stealing the limelight from my other members who are equally talented, and so on and so forth. People close to me say to disregard it but when you are in the situation it eats you up, every fucking day. I tried to reason out to postpone it for another year not until we have the group's comeback, but they won't just listen. The management decision is already cast in stone and if I don't follow them – the chance of getting the comeback and solo album will be thrown away and we are just going to rot in the dungeon for the rest of I don't know when.

My members knew what happened in the meeting, my manager unnie told them. They told me not to worry and to proceed with the album and when they said that they will support me on this venture I couldn't help but cry like a baby. At the back of my head, I feel that this is so unfair for them.

"Sejeong-ah, I know what you are thinking. Please don't. It's not your fault that we couldn't get the comeback that we want at this time. It's a tough competition for girl groups and the management knew what they are doing. Let's put our trust on them and keep believing that one day, we will stand again on the same stage. The waiting might be tough, but we'll get through it. But for now, I want you, we want you to show them what God Sejeong is. I know you'll make us proud." When I heard this from our leader – Hana, I cried even harder.

Mina suddenly burst out laughing because she finds my crying face funny. "Unnie, will you please stop crying you look ugly. Hahahaha! But on serious note, please don't feel bad. It's not your fault, okay? We got you, okay? And to be honest I am excited on the outcome of your first album. You have a lot of composed songs kept and it's about damn time that people should hear about this. Don't cry anymore, please? You are making us cry too and we don't want to flood our practice room with our salty tears." After hearing my members, it made me a little bit better.

"Sejeong-ah! Stop crying now or I'll call Sehun this instant. You know how much he reacts when he hears you cry." Nayoung is about to hit the call button on my phone.

"Yaaaah! Don't! Stoooop!" I screamed at Nayoung. "Then stop crying." she said. I did stop crying. Telling Sehun about the state I am in is not a good idea at all. Ughhh. That guy. I'm not complaining tho but sometimes he tends to overreact. Hehehe.

"I'm pretty sure he's gonna be at your front door tonight." Mina smirks.

'What did you do?!?" I asked. "Nothing. Yaaah! Let's stop this crying fest and let's eat." Mina answered.

The day ended with us having dinner at our favorite restaurant, while I'm still feeling feeble, I tried not to show it to them. What I know right now is I'm truly blessed to have them.

When I got home I'm surprised to see Sehun at my front door waiting...with Vivi and Monsieur.

"I heard you need a drinking buddy. Chicken and beer sounds good, right?" Plus these two rascals miss their momma." He smiled slyly while lifting our fur babies.

"Right. I think Doenjang misses her Appa too. Let's go in."

Whether he just felt that I needed company or someone from the girls told him it doesn't matter anymore. What's important now is  he is here.  He really meant what he say 'I gotchu'.

Later that day...

I found out that Sehunnie has been bugging Mina about my whereabouts

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I found out that Sehunnie has been bugging Mina about my whereabouts. I am indeed lucky to have my girls and Sehun with me. 

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