one afternoon me and my stepbrother were talking about having a party and inviting our friends over and having a piss up.
like we have before but no one came till after and we didn't really plan it that well they just kinda came but we wanted to have a bigger and better thing.
so one night we were sending people messages telling them to come, I invite 3 of my closest friends but none of them could come and he invited 4 of his mates and they could all come. (One of them was a guy I used to be in love with) and my stepbrother knew this lol.
anyway hi I'm ava and I am 15 years old and this is a little bit of my life, first let's start with I grew up with 12 other kids in my house and a lot of drama between my family, I was a really bad kid I never did as I was told I just never listened when I was 11 years old my mother told me that she was pregnant to a guy that used to abuse me and my sister bc we were different from everyone else I was not happy I run away and didn't come home for a week I went to my guy friends house which I was 11 years old and he was 20 years old, I wish I never went but I went to my dads and he didn't want me so I had to go home I sat down with my mum and told her everything about the father of this child she was about to have.
so one night it was about 4 in the morning she come down to my room and told me to pack everything bc we were moving and that she had been fighting with the father of this kid, so we put everything in the car and drove 7 hours to my aunts house bc we had no we're to go no money, no food, no family, no nothing I pretended to be asleep most the time, my mum was crying I felt really bad but it was for the best about anyway now almost 5 years later we are in a house my mum is in a relationship that I couldn't ask for a better one, he treats me like his own, I have a 4 year old sister and she is the best thing ever I love her so much I have 3 stepbrothers and there amazing they treat me with so much respect pretty much my life is pretty amazing at the moment.
anyway it's the morning before the party my stepbrother told everyone to come at 5 so me and my sister who is 13 got up around 9 and cleaned up our house bc we needed money for drinks yes we are only 13 and 15 but our mums let's us drink when we won't to, my two stepbrother which are also 13 and 15 went for a walk around 1, I don't really know where they were going because I was getting ready ( I knew that the guy I used to be in love with was gonna be there so I really had to get fucking dressed up lol ).
It only took me 100 outfits that I had to show my sister because I was just not thinking straight, you know that feeling like when you really don't want to go some where because you know that person is gonna be there's well yes I had that to the max I felt so sick. I spent about 1 hour doing my make up and spend about half an hour doing my hair lol it was a waste of time though bc it was raining when I finally picked a outfit I was wearing black jeans and Nike hoodie with a white shirt from cotton on with the original vans I mean I didn't look to bad but I didn't want to look over dress you know.
I messaged my step brother which I'm closer to the 15 year old I said "where did you" go he replied " to go get jack" I was like fuck they will be here in like 5 mins and it's only like 3 I was not ready for this omg my sister was like calm down ava.
my sister and I were ready and just siting down waiting then we heard them home so my sister was like let's go and I said no lol I didn't go over when she did and also we lived across the road from each other.
about 5 mins later jacks little brother benny also know as my bestfriend but he is 13 anyway be come over to my house and was like come on come join the party and he knew that it would be awkward between me and his brother.
He picked up all my stuff and got my stuff out of my room and was like let's go and I really didn't want to go but he took my phone and there is stuff on there that he can't see so I started walking over and I went through the door and they were all out the back and when I walk about the back door every one was......