I walked out the back door and everyone was staring as if I had killed someone I walked down till to shed and i put my phone on charge and my step brother came over and was like you okay but he turned up the music because that is what he is like.
I told him that I was fine but really it was so awkward I kinda was thinking of going home, he was like come sit down and I told him soon I need to talk to someone quickly "I didn't really but no one knew that" I went and sat at the table and we were kinda just all taking but me and jack didn't say anything together but we kept looking at each other and then quickly looking away ahaha.
after about 30 mins the parent's turned up to the party with our drinks, btw I'm a very big lightweight and everyone hates when I drink because all I do is cry, but I have so much fun!! .
Around 5 o'clock all the other guys turned up and we all started drinking but knowing me I drink all my drinks first and I was so fuck and so was benny everyone else was looking after benny and I
I remember falling asleep on the grass and jack come and took me to bed bc I was to drunk and I told him that I wouldn't go to sleep unless he was laying next to me so I think we were laying there for like 30 mins just talking after that my step brother came in about 3 hours later around 10 and woke me up and I run out side and through up everywhere, they had to awake me up because benny was crying bc he needed me and that his toy pig which was the dogs toy apparently one of the guys told him that it was diabetes Lolll and I had to lay down with him and then he feel asleep.
and we were all every drunk at this time and we were all dancing and stuff at the this time and then me and jack went in side and made coffee i don't know why we did that but we did and then we sat down on a 2 setter lounge with a blanket and I was laying on him and we were watching tiktok and everyone came in and kinda was like ooooop like you know making fun of us bc we were like that but I really just wanted to kiss him at this time like i don't know why I didn't.
