Story inspired by Sen Cal Kapimi. The main plot and characters belong to their original writers. These story is how I imagine/want the scenes to be after episode 30.
"you can't forget someone when you're still hoping for them to come back"
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The saddest kind of sad is when your tears can't even drop and you feel nothing. It's like the world has jus ended. You don't cry. You don't hear. You don't see. You stay. For a second, the heart dies.
That's how I was feeling. The only difference was that my heart didn't died just for a second, my heart died 2 months and a half ago on my wedding day, and it seemed that no electric shock would work for her. The only 'electric shock' that worked was when Serkan returned. That was the first time in two months my heart was able to beat again, making me realize that my hearts only beats for him, just to find out that his doesn't anymore. Then my heart stopped beating again..
After I convinced Melo to let me go for a walk because I needed to be alone to think I ended up on a bench staring at the Bosphorus, not before walking around for almost 2 hours trying to calm myself down. But with each step I took I felt more and more that I was running out of air. Between my tears falling down my face and my attempts to calm myself I remembered what my aunt told me once " Whenever I'm lost and try to find myself again I'm going somewhere where I can watch the sea because I believe that if the sea can calm itself then so can I. There you can always learn to breath again." , so there I was, staring at the waves trying to calm myself down.
Even though the sky was cloudy it was quite warm outside and from time to time a little ray of sunshine would come out to warm your face giving you the impression that no matter how hard your life is, there would always be hope even if you don't see it.
I wasn't crying anymore. Not sure if it was because I was feeling better or maybe because I had no tears left to cry. Maybe I felt so much, that I stared to feel nothing. But just then someone sat down next to me making me feel again things I could never describe. I didn't had to look at him to know who it was. It was Serkan.
He didn't said a word or even looked in my direction. He was just staring at the sea just like me but his simply presence was enough to make my blood boil. Was it the same feeling I had whenever I was around him ? As hard it is to admit it, I know it wasn't because the man that I loved was not sitting beside me even if he looked exactly like him.
I wanted to talk and ask him why is he here? How did he find out where i was ? Did he tried to found out where i was in the first place or it was just an coincidence? Million of questions started to run in my head and I wasn't sure what should I ask first. Precisely I was scared of getting my hopes up on him getting worried about me, even for a little.
"You probably ask yourself how did I find out you're here.. Melek told me. Honestly I don't have any idea why she did, I wasn't expecting her to do it."
