all for us | connie springer

three

chapter three
lost

hope.

a feeling of trust , a feeling that everything will turn out fine if you just believe.

hope is such a stupid feeling.

it doesn't exist anymore.

"SASHA" you yelled out as you tried to keep her awake.

"SASHA STAY WITH US" connie yelled out.

your vision started to blur as tears rolled down your face.

"PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU"

"you're so loud.. is our food ready yet?" she managed to say.

"CMON"

"COVER THE WOUND HURRY" jean yelled out.

"SASHA JUST HOLD ON UNTIL WE GET TO THE ISLAND"

you stared at your best friend you've known since you were twelve dying right in front of you, feeling so hopeless since there's nothing you could.

"meat" she spoke once more.

"sasha please i need you. please stay" you asked her softly as your voice cracked.

"these two got up here using lobov vertical maneuvering gear, i'll toss them out. any objections " floch said grabbing both kids.

"is throwing kids out of an airship going to stop this blood shed" jean spoke.

"throwing them out isn't going turn back time" you spoke as you cried while holding sashas hand.

you looked at her ghostly face and remember every smile , laugh and joke you had with her.

everything came rushing back to you as you felt your hope crumble away.

the girl who shot sasha started yelling but it sounded muffled to you.

nothing seemed real.

you saw mikasa and armin come to see how sasha was holding up.

you checked her pulse , and you felt your world stop.

"she's gone" you managed to say before breaking down into more tears.

"she shouldn't have died" you continued to say.

connie got up without saying anything and went to where the kids were taken.

"why not me?" you yelled out as you held her hand tighter.

hope.

such a stupid feeling.

it doesn't exist anymore.

A/N
i cried writing this
in class 😁