This time I'm gonna say ILY!

CHAPTER 1

February 2021

"Happy lunar new year! Samchon Seunggi!!-- okay baby say goodbye to Samchon Seunggi now" Cha Tae-Hyun grab his phone and bring it to his face "Hahaha look at that kid-she wants me to face time you so she can ask money from you!", he stand up and sit comfortably on his living room couch "Awww, so cute! i'll give her the money when i see her soon-" he sip his Rum and look away-The loneliness creeps in him when he hear the kids are bickering in the background. "Ahmm, hey Seunggi are you still listening, hahaha? ohhh, i know what you're thinking right now! go ahead~ just call her!" He loves to tease Seung gi about her since he partly knows the story behind "tch, come on hyung! let it go~ hahaha move on" he finished his drink "i'll see you soon-i need to study my script tonight" Seung gi stand up, he want to finish this conversion before it'll leads to her, "oh~ okay, you know i'm just joking right? but i wanna tell you something before we end this call- you should pick up your phone and just call her! be a man seung gi! bye" Cha Tae hyun abruptly hung up before Seung gi can say anything "Aish~ it's not that easy!!"

Seung gi is on his study room reading the 'mouse' script but his not grasping anything, forcing into it wont do anything, he slammed the script and scratch his head "i'm going crazy, this crazy" he stand up, grab his phone and walk his way to the kitchen and went straight to pour another Rum, he gulp it all and his face frowned "tsk, i need a another one". he pour the remaining Rum to his glass, unconsciously open his phone, looking at her number debating to tap and call her "this is nonsense! why should i do it?- no! Im not gonna call her-" he gulp his drink and close his phone. He sit slouchy, not thinking of anything but the image of her slide into his mind, a tear fall down to his cheeks and he automatically wipe it "ha ha ha i'm just drunk" he sit up straight and drink again, he started singing his own song "gosh, i look pathetic right now- ha ha ha" he closed his eyes and start remembering his last conversation with her-

*** "Oppa, i i-don't think were both ready yet- i don't know--" She looked away, he reached out for her hands and softly touch it, he can feel that she's shaking and ready to cry, he cupped her face "look at me- we both know that we like each other-" She cuts him off and take back her hands, "what you feel for me is not love- just say it! you are not ready for me!" She started crying, "no-please stay with me- Somin, i-" He cant think of anything, but one thing for sure is he's panicking, grasping for the correct words is too far for him, She sit down and looked far away "i don't think you understand me- im not asking you for anything oppa- we have a good time together, those eight months with you is so precious to me and i really cherish it- but i don't see the point- were stuck in this zone for which i don't know how to call it--" She wiped her own tears, Seung gi angrily sit down at the end of the couch "what?! what the hell are you talking about? You've kept me as a secret too- don't blame me for this Somin-" he looked down, clinching his both hands "Don't bring your insecurities to me! this is crazy- do you even hear what you are saying right now?" She stand up and walk in front of him "were not getting younger- all i wanna see from you is to man up!" Seung gi raised his head and laid back "huh? do you think it's easy? and did you just come here to do this to me?- we were so good last week- what changed your mind? is it him?" Somin cant believe everything what she hears right now, she shakes her head and walk away but Seung gi caught her amrs "Im sorry- im being a jerk right now- please hear me out" He try to hug her but Somin didn't response to it, her arms are still hanging "let's stop this before we say anything hurtful again.... lets pretend this day didn't happened.. okay?" Seung Gi hear her cry and hugged her tightly this time "im so sorry- i guess your right- were not ready-- can you at-least hugged me tight for the last time?" Somin tried hard not to cry too much but his hug give her warm and sadness, she wipes her tears and hug him back tightly they looked each other for the last time and when she's about to cry again and she sees Seung Gi's hard fingers about to touch her- she walk away and grab her bag, went straight to the door. ***

Seung gi opened his eyes, the sadness and regret is on his face. "i miss you!". he finish his drinks in one gulp and he awkwardly lay on his couch hugging himself and drift away.

Ding Dong~ Ding Dong~ He woke up sore and annoyed by the doorbell, "wait up~ Im coming!" his manager greet him "hey, you reek of alcohol! get ready we need to re shoot the scene from the other day- im so sorry i tried to contact you last night but i guessed you turned off your phone!" His manager find his way to the couch and kick the bottle of Rum laying down "do you want me to call a cleaning company for you?" Seung gi shakes his head "please do it, im gonna shower and we will go!" he walks towards to his room and left his manager "next time you drink you can call me!" his manager shouts, Seunggi just raised his arms and walk away.

"Good take for today Seung gi- im so sorry we called you to re'shoot this scene!" the PD of 'mouse' is talking to him "nah- its okay PD'nim you know me- i want this drama to be good" he give the PD a tap "thank you and by the way congratulations on 'Sing Again' my family loves that show--ohh valentines is coming and as far as i check you are not shooting with me that day- hope you will enjoy your free time" the PD smile at him and walk his way out to check the camera man, Seung Gi was left behind "hahah well that was awkward- im hungry its almost 8pm now" he walks toward to his car. "here's your phone- where do you wanna go?" His manager ask him "Just bring me home" he open his phone and his little brother crazy yuk seung jae bombarded him with text messages "seung jae is sending me some photos while saying his not handsome anymore-" he laugh "you're still a chucky seung jae", his manager laugh with him.