can you mend the broken✓(Editing)

2 : HER CHANGED BEHAVIOUR

Sidharth came inside the guest room and started scrolling through his WhatsApp to check when she messaged him last time. His head started to burn with pain, he started to think about his married life, his ignorance is the main reason for their broken marriage. A fear started to engulf him that what he will do if Shehnaaz left him.

Sidharth: 2 months ago. I know I am at mistake because I ignored her due to work but now how I am going to rectify that mistake?

He asked himself while holding his head, he understood that he was wrong to choose work over his wife but can he change the past now? For him, work was his priority and his identity. He used to think that Shehnaaz will never break the marriage and he concentrate on her after gaining success. They were one physically but there was no understanding from both sides. He thought there is no love in his life and love is not at all needed. For him, money was important which he was sending to her.

Shehnaaz: yes work is important. Even I want to behave the same now as I don't have any other wish now

Shehnaaz said and left from there angrily, she is very hurt by him. She is hurt for a long time since she got to know that he didn't like her, what he is going to explain when his actions also prove that work was always his priority, not relations? Today too his words hurt her but not to an extreme level as she somewhere knew what he thinks of her. She knows he won't accept her as his wife and she is ready to leave him now.

When Shehnaaz left Sidharth remembered her wish which she asked when he was going to Germany

Flashback start

" Sidharth aap jaa rhe ho toh meri ek wish hai aapse. Kya aap humesha mere lea ek special place rakhenge aapne dil mai? Mujhe roz call karenge", Shehnaaz asked innocently

Sid : Sure but mujhe time nai milega mai udhar kaam karne ja rha hu and time bhi alag hoga

Shehnaaz: koi ni aap at least meri chinta toh karoge na bhuloge toh nai mujhe?

Sidharth: yes mai humesha tumhe yaad rakhunga

He said and kissed her forehead before leaving. That's how he left, and these are the moments that they used to share. Just small moments that too for some time used to mean a lot to Shehnaaz as she started to like Sidharth. After marriage, she started to fall for him and used to behave crazy like she is his biggest fan.

Flashback end

Shehnaaz wiped her fresh tears and came with a tray of food. Yes, she is hurt but she can't forget the duty of a wife. She is still now her life partner and the owner of this house too. She is hurt beyond limits by him but her heart still cares for him. She was about to leave the room after placing the tray Sidharth held her hand and looked into her eyes.

Sidharth: Shehnaaz ek minute hum baat karke sab suljha sakte hai

Shehnaaz: yes like it's very easy, right? But to tell you aapke mujhse baat karne se na mera baby vapas aaega na mera dil judega jo Tut chuka hai. Anyways aab mujhe fark bhi ni padta

Said Shehnaaz and turned to go but Sidharth held her hand more tightly to stop her from moving out. Shehnaaz turned towards him angrily. How dare he stop her now?

Sidharth: ek baar baith ke bta do kab kya, kese hua? Tum pregnant kab hui and pata kese chala?

Sidharth asked to which Shehnaaz chuckled, Shehnaaz looked towards his hand which was holding her wrist and pushed his hand aside with a jerk

Shehnaaz: mujhe aapse baat he nahi karni

Sidharth: aur tumhe depression kese hua? Doctor kya keh rhi thi? Itna suffer kia kya tumne?

Shehnaaz kept quiet as she don't want to say anything to him right now. Just because of him she doesn't even want to cry, she always wants to kill herself and take her life. She wants to keep thinking about her past life sadly without any happiness

Shehnaaz: aab konsa kush hu? Aap kuch jante nahi islea bol rhe hain. Vese kamal ki baat hai na jisse sabse pehle pata hona chahea vo itne time baad puch raha hai ki tumne suffer kia?

Miscarriage ke baad jab pain hoti thi I...I thought ki at least aap aaenge but nai aapne toh ek baar call karke nahi pucha ki Shehnaaz kesi ho

Agr uss time meri friend Shanaya ne saath Na dia hota time pe hospital ni pahunchaya hota toh mai bhi upar hoti

Shehnaaz said sarcastically and stood up first time in a while she felt like breaking down with tears now. She felt she had controlled her emotions more than enough now and she should have let them flow but she can't. She doesn't trust Sidharth enough to cry in front of him, she thinks that he will call her a dramatic and emotional person if she cried

Sidharth: I know meri sorry kuch vapas ni la sakti but mera jann ne ka huk toh hai na

Shehnaaz: huk toh hai aapka par aapne bacha paida karne ke alwa konsa huk nibhaya hai?

She replied in a cold voice but her voice was getting rough while talking with him which shocked him as he always heard her sweet voice and she used to forgive people easily. She never raised her voice in front of him then why now?

Sidharth I am sorry. A hundred times par please aache se baat karlo

Shehnaaz: Han pehle aapne kadar ki thi hana? Bacha kisne kaha jab mai aache se behave karti thi? Please mera muhh mat khulvaea mai jada bolna ni chahti

Shehnaaz was about to leave again but this time Sidharth pulled her towards himself, Due to the sudden pull Shehnaaz landed on his lap. Sidharth held her waist tightly and tucked her hair strand behind her ear. Shehnaaz started breathing heavily because after 6 months they are close now. She missed him a lot but was unable to voice it out. She wanted someone to pamper her and care for her but she couldn't. Sidharth is her weakness and she can't change this fact ever.

Sidharth: tum aab bhi utni he khoobsurt ho. Roya mat karo aachi ni lagti

Shehnaaz: rulane ki wajah bhi aap he hain. Vese bhi aapko shuru se meri Khoobsurati se he pyar hai mujse nai

Shehnaaz tried to go again but he was holding her waist tightly so she  was unable to move out

Shehnaaz: jane dejea

Sidharth: nai rhi baat Khoobsurati ki toh Shehnaaz I don't care about beauty. I never took our relationship further just because you were beautiful. I respect this marriage and you that's why I completed us. And I swear I was never involved like this with anyone. I can never give your place to anyone

Be cleared her misunderstanding and kissed her forehead, Shehnaaz closed her eyes tightly feeling his lips. She doesn't know why she felt peace with his touch, why she still feels the same.

Shehnaaz: maan lia par aapki yeh meethi baatein mujhe nai pighal sakti . Mai ja rhi hu office khana aap 10 minute rukea taiyaar kar dungi

Sidharth: office? Khana? But tumhain khana bnana nai aata tha na and tum toh teacher thi?

Shehnaaz: wakth ke saath changes jaruri hote hai right so even I changed. Mai bhi dekhna chahti thi kya hai buisness mai jo pati aapni biwi ko bhul jata hai

Sidharth again looked down and saw his tray already there

Sidharth: yeh hai toh sahi

Shehnaaz: han but Mr. Shukla aap sirf ek baar khana nai khaenge. Anyways mai chali

Sidharth held her hand and back hugged her. Shehnaaz wriggled in his hold but he didn't leave her. After a minute Shehnaaz stopped wriggling when she felt Sidharth's hot breath on her shoulder. She shivered with his touch and started to take heavy breaths

"You can't win over me. Sit and have something with me", he said near her ear and left her

Shehnaaz: it's better to die rather than having something with you

Sidharth: before you used to say that a couple should eat together

Shehnaaz: there is a big difference between that Shehnaaz and now

Sidharth: agar nai khaogi toh mai bhi khana ni khaunga

Shehnaaz; like I care na khao fir toh mujhe dopeher ke lea bnane ki bhi jarurat nai

She said and left from there without paying any heed to Sidharth
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