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Kenma x Male Reader (Requested)

(Hopefully it tags you if not I'll tag you in the comments)   @GLITCHBISH69 Before I start this let me say I'm really sorry it took this long. I just went through a lot of stuff recently and I just didn't know where to start with this one. Um I'm sorry if this isn't the best I got really lazy with the end there I'm sorry. I still hope you enjoy <3

This is a self harm comfort so please be warned. There I'll be mentions of self harm in here. When I write this I'm not glorifying this and romanticizing it.

You and Kenma were coming home from volleyball practice and he seemed off.

It was like he was a bit mad or maybe thinking of something. He looked really out of it.

Once you got home your mother greeted you and simply waved at Kenma.

You two went to your room and you pulled your laptop open to start your work.

You kept stealing glances at Kenma whilst he sat on your bed and played games.

But he kept losing and you could tell he was getting frustrated.

Maybe from thinking a bit too much and him losing focus..

"Kenma." You turned to look at him bringing your knees to your chest.

"Hm?" He paused his game and looked at you.

You sat your chin on your knees and tilted your head to the side a bit.

"What's wrong? You've been a bit off since we've left practice.." you asked him.

"You."

"What do you mean?"

"You're what's wrong. At practice every time you'd receive a ball and it'd hit your wrist or fall onto your arm you'd flinch." Kenma sighed pointing to your arms, "You looked like you were in pain."

You looked away for a moment and back at Kenma.

"I'm fine, Kenma." You sighed turning back to your work.

"But that's not the only time I've seen you like that, Y/n. You always flinch or your face scrunches up when someone grabs your arms.."

"Kenma, just leave the topic alone. I'm fine!" You rolled your eyes, now getting frustrated.

"Y/n... can you roll up your sleeves?" Kenma asked you in a serious tone.

You bit your lip and shook your head no.

"Y/n."

"Kenma.."

Kenma got up from the spot on your bed and walked towards you.

He grabbed your hand yanking you forward forcefully and pulling down your sleeve.

"So I was right." Kenma said, letting out a sigh.

You looked down at the floor as your eyes filled with tears.

You felt disappointed.

There was a small silence between you two.

"Why..? Why did you do this to yourself? And I swear if you give me a dumb answer.. Y/n."

"Are you mad at me?" You asked, your voice lower than a whisper.

"Of course not, I just want to know why?"

"I don't know why Kenma.. I just- I'm- I feel like I'm not worth enough anymore.. I feel like I'm not perfect for you.. I feel I don't know.. it's hard to explain Kenma.. It's-." Kenma cut you off, placing his hand under your chin and lifting your head up to look at him.

"Don't say that dumb shit Y/n! If you're feeling like this you can always talk to me. Don't hurt yourself like this. You do know if Kuroo were to find out he'd kick you off the team?"

"Yes! Kenma I know. Just- this is why I didn't want to tell you.." you frowned.

It was a moment of silence between the two of you before Kenma kissed your arm.

He pressed kisses along the scars and pulled away once he was done.

"I'm taking your piggy bank until you stop"

You gasped, "But I've been saving up for-!"

"Mmm I don't care. I'll take it with me." Kenma walked over to your dresser, picking up your piggy bank and putting it in his bag.

"Kenma! You can't take all of it!" You whined.

Kenma shrugged his shoulders, grabbing his switch.

"I'm gonna go now. I'll see you tomorrow." He kissed your cheek and walked to your door but stopped, "If you can stay at least a month clean I'll give it back to you."

You sat there in your desk chair in disbelief.

"Did he just steal mR. PIGGY!"

Over the next couple of weeks you tried your best to stay clean.

Whenever you got the urge to you would think about things that made you happy. Maybe even draw when you know you can't and do missing assignments that have been due.

You were gonna try and make Kenma happy but also get your money back obviously.

A month passed and Kenma knocked on your Door.

You rushed down the stairs almost falling to get down.

You swung it open and smiled.

"Hi."

"Hey."

Kenma took his shoes off and hung his jacket on the coat rack by your front door.

He followed you into your room and you sat in your desk chair and he sat on your bed.

"Did you fail or did you succeed at keeping clean?" He asked you whilst opening his bag and getting the piggy bank inside.

"I succeeded like the awesome boyfriend I am!" You exclaimed as he chuckled a bit.

"Can I see?" Kenma pointed to your arms.

"Mhm!" You rolled up your sleeves and showed him your arms.

There weren't any new marks, no cuts, no scratches.

He smiled and handed you your piggy bank.

"Try to stay like that ok? I don't want you doing that to yourself.." Kenma mumbled and you nodded.

"Yes sir! I'll try my best just for you!" You giggled pressing a kiss to his cheek.

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I hope you enjoyed this! I apologize if it's not the best I've just been really out of it. Thanks for reading. I'll see you on the next one. <3