I Don't Want To Live If It Means Living Without You

Wait what? Im going to see Gon again!

( Sorry guys this chapter is kinda boring. I had to make this chapter for it to get more interesting. Thank you! Enjoy!)

Killuas POV

I walk up to the front door where Alluka is. I then look over at Alluka to see a bright smile on her face. I then smile. I can't blame her for being exited, I mean I would do the same if I were about to see Gon.  I then feel my checks getting hot....... uh oh. I quickly try to stop my self from blushing more, before anyone sees. The door then opened.

"Oh hello Killua and Alluka," Wing said.

"Is Zushi here!" Alluka said while jumping up and down.

"Yes he's in the liv-" before he could finish Alluka ran inside.

"Haha sorry about that she's been really exited to see zushi lately," I say while scratching the back of my neck.

"Oh don't worry about it. As long as those two don't get to hyper it will be fine... here come in."

I walk into Wings houses. Wow the last time I was here was when me and Gon learned Nen together. Alluka was here a few weeks ago, but I was out running errands so I never was able to come in.  I look around. I then frown remembering the very spot me and Gon released Nen for the very first time. I then remember the big smile on Gons face when we got the hang of it. Tears start building up in my eyes.....  'shit.'  Before anyone could see me I rushed off into the bathroom.

"Big brother where are you going."

"Oh I uh just have to use the bathroom."

"Oh okay."

I got into the bathroom and wiped my tears away. I then rinsed my face with cold water.
'What has gotten into me.' .......'why do I always feel so sad when I think of Gon... I mean yeah I miss him but it's different.... I can't explain it.'

I look at myself in the mirror. 'Okay it doesn't look like I have been crying so I should be good.' I wipe my face on my shirt. I then go back out to the living room.

Allukas POV

(starts when she ran into the house)

As soon as I heard that zushi was here I ran into the house. I saw him sitting on the couch. I ran up to him and gave him a big hug..... when I pulled away I saw that he had turned bright red. That cause my cheeks to start burning up a little.

"Zushi! I missed you."

"A-Alluka you s-scared me," Zushi says while rubbing the back of his neck.

"Oh um- I'm sorry🥺"

"No no it's okay. Hey do you want to play a board game or something."

"Sure!"

Zushi got up to get a board game. That's when I saw big brother frown. 'He's probably thinking about Gon again... ugh I just want Big Brother to be happy.' I then see that he's about to cry. 'Oh no.' He then started walking towards that bathroom.

"Big brother where are you going."

"Oh I uh just have to use the bathroom."

"Oh okay."

I turn back to see the Zushi was staring at big brother with a confused look on his face and a board game in his hand.

"Did you see that Alluka."

"See what." I say pretending I don't know what he's talking about.

"Your brother...he looked so sad."