Destined to you (ziam royal au)

CHAPTER 14

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It's another night spent without Zayn. He clearly didn't like it, but I was stern, so he reluctantly let me. And again, sleep is a foreign subject to me. Lunch was nice, as it was just me and Zayn...but dinner was awkward. We were back at square one and apparently, someone spread the news about we both kissing in the garden and his family didn't take it very well.

I just wanted to finish eating as soon as possible, and run away from the possible assumptions they are making about me.

It feels so good to spend some time with Zayn without having these remembrance about the things went wrong recently. But after the happy moment spent together, it's a reality check. Nothing changed, nobody in his family likes me, nor the people of this kingdom.

Zayn is all I got.

And here I am, back alone and suffering.

I don't know what to do to gain his father's favor, but it feels like no matter what I do, I will always be a burden to all of them.

Was it my family doing back home? Do...do they miss me? Do they think that shouldn't have disowned me? Is Caleb taking good care of them?

No matter what my father did to me, I can't deny the fact that I miss him a bit....his strict ness, or the pride I would feel when he appreciates me on a good job.

But I can't say if I miss my mother or not, because she is just a painful memory to me now. When I think about her, it's so painful that I can feel a gapping whole in my chest.

I think about Louis and Niall, and feel my eyes well up involuntarily. I miss them both so much, it feels too silent and foreign here without them. When I went to Francis for the first time, I didn't feel like a stranger. Harry's family welcomed me with open arms and I had my friends with me, but here....even if I have Zayn, I feel so lonely.

They can make me smile even when I'm in verge of crying. I miss the food Niall would bring for me, or the way he would feed me even when I'm capable of eating myself. I miss Louis' annoying teasing and comments, I miss how much he would make me laugh that I would have tears in my eyes. I recall the memory from the lake shore all those months ago, how we were bantering and Shawn told us our friendship is beautiful....

I miss them both so much.

I wish there were here with me. I wish they are okay and doing well....

I stare out of the window at the sky silently, feeling tears staining my cheeks. This would be the time they will usually sneak in to check on me.

I look at my chamber when I hear a rustling noise and find out that Topaz is here. He walks in gracefully and settles down across to me, his eyes on me. I wipe my tears off and look away, feeling weirdly awkward. Why is he here again? I don't want the King to think I stole their pet away.

"What are you doing here?"

No answer.

"You should go to King Yaser" I tell him "You are not supposed to be here. Go, Topaz. Please"

He just keeps staring.

"King Yaser...hey, you understand me right? Leave me alone and go sleep in King's chamber. This won't go well with the royal family" I tell him softly but he just gets comfortable on the soft carpet, and rests his head on his paws, still watching me.

"I don't want them to think I stole you away, please go away" I whisper my eyes slipping tears and he perks up at that. He moves closer and leans closer to my face where tears are dripping down right now. I stay put as he noses against my cheek, and hold my breath for dear life. He wipes my tear off with his face and it truly surprised me, I thought he hates me for stealing Zayn away.