Touch of a Purple Hyacinth Upon the Moon

Nightingale

I was on the way to our lovely home with feelings of excitement and eagerness in my heart. And then there's this strange feeling I could hardly understand. It's as if there's something stuck in my throat and I couldn't get it out.
As I entered through the door, my heart kept beating faster and faster. Then my heart was filled with  sadness and nervousness because for the first time, she didn't greet and hug me like what she usually does when I get back. It was a   marvelous moment, you see.. But… This day is new to me... So, I immediately look around for her, but I wonder, where is she?  I kept trying to calm myself down to stop these tears slowly dripping on my cheek… I thought she will be back in a second or that maybe she went to the market to buy something, minutes passed into hours... she did not come back… I wonder where is she? I find myself starting to look for her in the streets and everywhere else she might go to but there's still no sign of her...
At that moment, I felt hopeless but I still need to be brave… I tried to find her, screaming her name... But...still no sign of her… Until that night, I keep walking and continue searching to her without a break... hoping that, she will be back soon... But...it didn't happen… I still kept looking for her… But… I found… Nothing… Nothing but the tears in these very eyes of mine..... I went back home... Without a word ... I found myself begging... until I found something... a... letter… it made me feel even more bitter and sick .... When I  finish reading it… My whole body, shaking and slowly, sitting on floor, felt numb.... That time... I let my tears drip, praying to alleviate the pain I feel right now. I know it's so hard to accept the fact that you are no longer with me, that you are not going back, and I will never see you again ............ Every moments and days has come, I always went to the place that we've  first meet, I always hope that you will come back again…I always wait for you....... Even though I know that this hope of mine is nothing but ashes that will vanish in the wind.....Everytime I saw a lake, it reminded me of how beautiful you are... When I turn around to see a group of evergarden, I remember your eyes that make me feel better... There's  no other day that I missed a chance reminiscing you.  I always remember our time together: the promises,  the places we meet and the day I met you..., yes, I will die to this place where we first meet... I want you to know that I love you .... I only love you … Because of you I learned to wait and hope .... I just want to stay here to this place for the rest of my life... Until death, you are always here in my heart ... Wherever you are now,  always remember that you are my sun and moon…the sun is the reason why I can remember those days and years that we've been together and when the moon appears it's a reminder of our promises and love to each other… Although  I know you are gone .....but… I still love you, until my last breath… I whisper..... Your name here in this place tonight with the witness of the moon..ac..ac..ia... cy..pre-