Sandcastle ; Jaywon

First

Lately the days had been rushed. After debut, there wasn't one second Jungwon wasn't thinking about duties. Even when resting, his mind would still come back to what needed to be done.

Practice eight hours a day, scheduled events early in the morning of each day of the week. Keeping touch with his mom and grandma, taking care of the members while adapting to a new life away from home, and still attending school. 

With so much happening and to be done, he would expect to be worried about anything. If the floor would be slippery in their stage presentations, if everyone's shoes were comfortable enough for all the dancing they had to do, if the dinner would be enough to keep them alive until tomorrow. 

But one thing he didn't expect to be worried about was the boy standing in front of him. Hands in his pocket, eyes concentrated on the song that was blasting in the practice room. Jay usually had this laid-back style that got him away from his actions.

It wasn’t a big deal, actually. He’d been just acting a little weird lately. 

Jungwon was used to his clinginess, the physical way he had to show affection. It wasn’t rare to have Jay hugging him from behind out of nowhere, leaning chin on shoulder with his soft breath so close to his cheek. At first, he found it a little weird as he wasn’t one to enjoy hugs that  much. But with time, it became something he started to expect from the boy two years older than him.

He would expect Jay to sit next to him and play with his hand whenever they were broadcasting live. To come out of nowhere and cup his face on his hands, telling him how cute he looked like  that. To even lay down by his side on the bed when the day was too tiring, clinging to him like a teddy bear.

What he didn’t expect was for him to come so close whenever they laughed at a joke, to the point their eyes would be just a few centimeters apart. Or to always show that smirk whenever Jungwon was trying to annoy him, like he could read right through and knew he just did that for attention.

For his attention. 

To be honest, Jungwon started liking skinship because of Jay. Lately, the first thing he'd do when nervous would be to hug someone's arm, or ask for one o the members to hold his hand. Comparing to as it was before, when he'd just keep his head down and not share his worries with anyone, it was a big change. 

It was all because of Jay.
 
And he liked it more when it was with Jay. For some reason, the awkward way the older would put his arms around his waist was his favorite. Jay was a little bit taller, so it felt like a really safe place between his arms. Also, the way he'd always let Jungwon rest his head on his shoulder whenever he was tired, was really nice.

But right now, he was wondering what the hell was going on. They were in middle of practice and Jay had just came so close to fix his hair. Jungwon had just tried to do this really hard step he couldn’t master, and his hair was a mess after another failed attempt. Normal thing, but before he could even look in the mirror, Jay was already one step ahead. Literally, one step distant, fixing his bangs while muttering this one song. 

Jungwon recognized it as “dive into you”, when he sang the “I hear you calling my name” part. Strange, since that wasn’t the song that was blasting in the background. Even stranger was the way he smirked, looking right into Jungwon’s lips before backing off and pretending nothing happened.

And now he was fully confused. Staring at the boy that seemed as oblivious to his feelings as everyone else in the room.

Lately the days had been like that. So much to worry about and Jay easily became one of those things.