[✓] KING OF HEARTS ☾ jaewin.

˗ˏˋ 05 ˎˊ˗

sicheng should've seen it coming. really. he should've known the butterflies in his stomach aren't a sign of a stupid crush.

" fuck ," he chokes out, hands covering his face. " I think I'm in love with him ."

next to him, yukhei sighs and pats his back sympathetically. the bar is crowded since it's a friday night and the loud music only worsens sicheng's headache. he downs a shot of vodka, desperately trying to get himself drunk as soon as possible, and asks the bartender for another glass. seunghee isn't working that night.

" ge, I think that's enough ."

sicheng shakes his head. " you don't get it, xuxi. I think I fucking love him, but he's... he's in love with someone else ."

" didn't I tell you to talk to him ?"

" I can't. it's not easy. I don't want to get my heart broken again. it hurts, xuxi, it hurts like hell ."

" I know, ge, but do you think staying like this –" yukhei gestures around the club. " – will make it any better? no. it won't solve anything. it'll only worsen your condition ."

sicheng pauses. he thinks back of the first day he starts to think he's catching feelings – their friendly-date. starting then he starts to think of jaehyun and jaehyun only; his dimpled-grin, his baritone voice, his touch, his everything.

today's the day you'll fall in love with me.

oh, the irony.

why the hell did he even fell in love with jaehyun?

he couldn't list the reasons. it's impossible, when he falls for the older more and more every time he's with him.

" if I wait long enough maybe the feelings will go away ." he blurts out.

yukhei frowns. " that's not how feelings work, ge. you can't run from them ."

" so what? it's either I get heartbroken when he eventually dates someone else or if he rejects me, and honestly I don't think I can deal with the second option. I've had enough of people dumping me ."

" first of all, doyoung didn't dump you, you guys broke up ," yukhei points out. " and rejection sucks. I know. but suppression isn't healthy either. at least if he rejects you, you can cry over it for a while and move on after that ."

can he move on? possibly. but if he does, things won't stay the same. gradually jaehyun will stop seeing him – and truth be told he doesn't think he can live a life without jaehyun.

sicheng gulps down his vodka. yukhei snatches the empty glass this time, preventing sicheng from ordering another round.

" enough for tonight, ge. let's get you home ."

" I don't wanna go home ." sicheng says softly.

" you have to ."

sicheng shakes his head. " it reminds me of him ."

" then... you can stay at mine for tonight ."

sicheng looks up and nods. yukhei smiles, helping him to get up and walk to the car without tripping. since he hasn't drank even a glass tonight yukhei's in charge of driving, and sicheng in the shotgun.

the whole ride is quiet. sicheng stares out through the window and watches the sceneries change, idly humming to the songs on the radio.

yukhei's apartment is on the seventh level. it's a trip to help sicheng walk properly on his feet, but yukhei manages to, with the older clinging to him all the time. when he unlocks the door sicheng gets in first, almost stumbling over the carpet.

for a college student, yukhei's place is objectively nice. no dirty clothes or pizza boxes on the floor. sicheng likes his room best, a simple cube-shaped room with a queen bed, a closet and many posters on the walls. reminds him of his own college days.

" you can sleep here if you want. I can take the couch –"

almost without thinking, sicheng cups yukhei's cheeks and leans forward to match their height. yukhei, caught off-guard, blinks and stares at him as if sicheng has grown another head. sicheng caresses his jaw gently, thumb touching yukhei's ear, a sweet smile on his face. yukhei gets the message in his eyes.

" don't ." yukhei says and removes sicheng's hands from his cheeks. " you'd regret this when you're sober ."

sicheng bites his bottom lip, fingers trailing down yukhei's chest. " I'd regret not doing it more than I regret doing it ."

" dong sicheng, are you out of your mind ?"

" I know you want to do this, xuxi ." sicheng says. he looks up through his lashes almost in a sultry way and yukhei gulps.

his hands find their way to sicheng's. he entwines their fingers and sicheng smiles at him, tiptoeing for a kiss, but yukhei pulls back before he could.

" do you really want to? you're deeply in love with jaehyun, hell. even I can't compete with him ."

" fuck him. I don't care ."

" you're crazy ."

" xuxi. do it for me ," sicheng pleads. his eyes are innocently bright as opposed to the situation and yukhei could never say no to that. " this will help me. don't you want me to get better ?"

like eve falling for the serpent's trick, yukhei eventually complies. he's hesitant at first; slowly taking sicheng's shirt off and fingers barely grazing sicheng's skin as if he's afraid to hurt him. it's sicheng who takes the initiative to kiss him.

he's rough at first but the kiss softens when yukhei takes lead, his lips pushing sicheng's in a slow pace. sicheng whines when yukhei slides his tongue in, turning the kiss wet and rather messy, but none of them care. sicheng's left hand brings yukhei closer to him while his free one trails lower, playing at the hem of yukhei's shirt.

that seems to trigger yukhei. he pushes sicheng to the bed, ripping his shirt off in a swift motion before he crawls over the older. his hands roam skillfully around sicheng's body as he kisses sicheng again. sicheng's fingers thread his hair when yukhei pulls back to kiss his exposed chest this time. the younger's hand palms sicheng's hardened member through his jeans, giving it a light squeeze and smirks when sicheng lets out a muffled moan.

" yukhei, shit – damnit, fuck me already ." he says, borderline demanding.

yukhei is totally experienced. it's evident in the way he makes sicheng cum without being touched, and not to mention twice before the younger even comes once. it's a mind-blowing sex, but it's not quite enough for sicheng.

truth be told, he doesn't feel any spark. his skin doesn't burn at yukhei's touches – and he even finds himself thinking of jaehyun. he wants jaehyun; his mouth, skin, hands, his voice, and him.

even when he's quite literally fucked out of his mind, he couldn't get that man away from his head.