Fuck all of this qnd fuck you.
It's true, I like you. I want you, but I dont think I deserve to be treated this way, I'm being taked for granted
I cant believe it took me this long to understand. Maybe I'm trying too hard, maybe I'm being too nice by giving you special consideration.
And I'm so stupid that even though it made me instantly feel bad, I tried to convince myself that I was just confused, but that's fucked up, you are not more deserving of happiness than me, why would it be like that?
Why would you tell me that you liked someone else, one of my closest friends at that, even when you knew I still had a thing for you? Its ridiculous how unconsiderate that was.
I know I'm not perfect, but you are also selfish and immature.
For the longest time I've always tried to muffle my feelings so you dont have to be affected by them and be happy.
But that's not true, I'm not confused, im just being an idiot trying to convince himself that the girl he liked is not a bad person
Its true, I really liked you, but fuck that, i deserve to be treated better.
You are your own person, you don't need me to be there for you or support you, I don't really want to keep doing that.
What am I supposed to do? I honestly have no idea, but maybe respecting myself is a good place to start.
You are most probably tired of me caring that much and always trying to be available, this is not a relationship and you don't see me in the same way as I did you. You never did.
I don't have to go the extra mile trying to please you, understand you or being nice to you.
I also get to be selfish and think about my happiness, I really tried my best, I gave it my all and bared out my heart.
I'm not mad about that, I don't regret it either, I felt what I felt and did what i thought was the best.
Just don't expect me to keep following you around as a friend, as if nothing happened. Even if nothing happened for you.
I became vulnerable even though I knew it was not a good idea, and it's fine, I like to think it's no one's fault.
You really were a huge part of my life and that backlashed. As you said: "we keep growing and changing", this wasn't meant to last this long.
It's fine if you dont want all this drama, you dont have to answer me
