Vamp match (Jasie)

4. That went wrong quickly

One moment I was lying in my bed, and the next I find myself back at the old mill. Like in a trance I walk over to Jade. Right now I am not scared, I just want to be close to her. Once I am close to her, I sit next to her and caress her hair. Before I know what to think about what I am doing she wakes up with a bolt. ''Josie, god, you scared me.'' 

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to make sure that you were okay.'' She looks at me in confusion and asks ''Why?'' That is a good question, since I do remember walking away from the mill with a plan to stay away from Jade, so I decide to answer her truthfully. ''I don't know. I guess I've just been thinking about you.'' She looks even more confused now, but also hopeful when she asks ''You have?'' ''Actually, I can't stop thinking about you.'' This reaction brings a shy smile to her face. ''I've been thinking about you too.'' After that, we both smile, and without me noticing I get closer to Jade until we are close enough to kiss. I lean the last part in and kiss her. The kiss is short and sweet. After the first kiss, Jade gets a bit more confident and leans in for a second longer kiss. She puts one of her hands on my face and the other on my side. After a moment she pulls me carefully closer to deepen the kiss. Like Jade herself, she is both gentle and strong in her actions. Before this moment I didn't know it was possible to be kissed by someone that way.

The next thing I know, I wake up in my own bed. Wait, was this a dream? It felt so real. However much I wish it would have been real, I am relieved that it was just a dream. It is better to stay away from Jade and focus on myself for now. 

Apparently, I must have made some noise before I awoke, because Lizzie asks me if I had a sex dream. After probably unsuccessfully trying to make her believe that I did not have a sex dream I get out of bed to go to the toilet. Once I get out of bed I notice my feet. They have sand all over them. Which is weird, since I showered before going to bed. Was my dream not a dream then? Did I sleepwalk, or has it something to do with magic? Did I really kiss Jade? 

Let's hope that it is just a dream or something. Otherwise, my plan to stay away from Jade has already failed. It would be easier to believe if there was no sand all over my feet. But despite the evidence, I decide to ignore it for now and pretend it has never happened. Real mature, yeah, but if I believe I kissed Jade, I have already lost. In the bathroom, I clean the sand from my feet and after that, I head back to bed and hope that there will be no more weird dreams or whatever happened.

The next day I wake up without any more weird dreams. Lizzie and I get ready to go downstairs. It is the weekend, but after everything that happened Emma decided that our group could use a therapy session. I do not know why they still decide that is a good idea. Cause most of the time the therapy sessions end, well, let's go with badly.

Once Lizzie and I get our breakfast we head to the gym where the session will take place. I am not thrilled to participate, but it is better to get it over with. When we get to the gym, Rafael, MG, and Hope are already here. Looking at hope, I see that I am not the only one that would rather be somewhere else. But to make matters worse, after Lizzie and I grab a seat, Jade appears in the doorway. Like I need any more reason to leave and hide somewhere preferably far away from here.

She apologizes for being late, saying that she had weird dreams. At the mention of weird dreams I tens up, it cannot be, right? But if I am right, I can guess what her dream was about. Great, now I really want to be anywhere but here. In the hopes of disappearing, I sack down on my chair when Jade walks over to our group to take a seat. I try not to look at her when she walks over, but I cannot help but steal a glimpse. Despite last night, Jade looks great, definitely not sleep deprived. Upside of being a vampire, I guess.

After Jade takes a seat, Lizzie speaks up and says ''what is she doing here?'' Guess  I am not the only one that would rather stay away from Jade, although I am pretty sure that Lizzie's reasons are not the same as my own. Emma tells us that after everything that has happened it would be useful to work all through it together. We will use Vardemus's Chambre de Chasse. All of us will create a story and setting together with a story specifically designed to help us figure things out.

After Emma opens the box, I can feel myself getting sent to an alternative world. After that, there is nothing till I get the word that will get me out.  Battlefield. Of course, at least it is appropriate for this therapy session I guess.

For those who want to know what happened. It was sort of a horror movie. Someone tried to kill all of us. And when I mean someone, I mean mine and Jade's alter ego, aka dark Josie and no-humanity Jade. The only ones who did not end up dead are Hope and me. At least not before remembering that this is not real after getting the word to get out. Then, before one of us can utter the word out loud, dark Josie and no-humanity Jade appear.

No need to explain the gory details. Let's just keep it simple. Hope and I woke up moments after that. Both juping out of our chair, gasping and looking at each other with a shocked look on both our faces. We were apparently the last ones to wake up. The rest was looking at us with worried expressions on their faces.

Since Hope and I were the last to wake up, the rest had already told Emma about the disaster that was this therapy session. Now that everyone is awake, we take our seats again so that Emma can talk with us about what happened.

Every one of us is involved in making the alternative world. The story that happens is a combination of all the problems that we have. But if one of us is more troubled than anyone else, their story will be the biggest and impact the stories of the rest. While Emma says this she looks at me.

Emma tells us that this therapy session is over and that we can go. Except for me and Jade, she would like us to stay. Lizzie and Hope both leave together after giving me a look, wishing me luck with their eyes. Rafael and MG follow them with a smile to both Jade and me.

Once the rest has left Emma asks us to sit down again. Jade gets back to the seat she previously sat in while I take the seat furthest from her and do my very best to pretend that Jade is not here. This therapy session only confirmed my fears that I should stay away from Jade.

Emma says she wanted to speak to us since both our alter egos killed everyone including ourselves. She says that she thinks that only one of us influenced the main part of the story including the dark-Josie and no-humanity Jade.

She first looks at Jade and asks if she thinks it would be her. I can feel Jade looking at me, but I do not turn. The only way that this is going to work is total avoidance. After a moment I can feel Jade's eyes leaving me and hear her say. ''Obviously, I am scared of my version without my humanity turned on and all the things that I did. But I am not afraid of Josie. Neither version, so I do not think it was me in this case.'' ''Oke, thank you, Jade, I think you are right. You can go, I would like to see you tomorrow if that is okay.'' ''Yeah, sure'', Jade says. Then I can hear her leaving, but I only turn my head once I can hear the door close after Jade.

Emma comes and sits next to me. She starts to speak ''I would be surprised after everything that happened that you are not scared of everything that happened in the prison world. But it is not your fault, Josie.'' ''Except it is, I did the black magic, I decided to do that, I may have been manipulated, but I still did it.'' Emma can probably see that I am not going to accept anything she says right now, cause I can hear her taking a deep breath before saying ''I would like to see you daily for the next couple of weeks Josie. It is okay to be scared and confused, you have every right to feel this way.'' After a nod in Emma's direction, I stand up and walk to the door.