Slam Poetry

Jealousy/Monster Inside

I see these people
Being stars, millions of views
Eyes bright, chin up

Then my stomach twists
Not butterflies, a monster
Living off my insecurities
And thriving, gaining strength every day

And it tells me the stuff
That I don't want to think about
But think every day, say every day
No matter how passing the comment
Or how easy the laugh

There is always something deeper
But does anybody care to find it
To break down my walls and to see
What's underneath

And if they do
Will they stay or will
They see how broken

Lost

Shattered

Drowned I am

And will they leave

It's easier not to know
To balance on the edge
Of the cliff with one foot already off
Than to let someone call me forward
Or shove me off

So I will keep my walls high
To see if anyone cares to break them down

I will keep my troubles hidden
To see if anyone likes what's underneath

I will keep an smile, a laugh, the joy of the moment
To see who knows it's a lie