A Night in Halikarnas | +18 ღ IT BECAME A BOOK! ღ

⚝ A Night in Halikarnas | PROLOGUE

PROLOGUE

Everything started that night. I walked in from the bar, drank too much, got on the stage and sang songs, and as soon as I got off I kissed a man I never knew. It was a joke, but not a funny one.

First, I guess I should get back to what happened that morning. And who I am...

Or should we never mind who I am? Because I can give anything for that too.

That morning, I set out with a small suitcase and hitchhiked to Bodrum. I wanted to leave everything behind. I wasn't scared because I had nothing to lose. Even if one of the people I hitchhiked to and got into his car cut me up. In fact, that was tempting now. I was bored, I swore to put my old life behind me. I was so determined, I erased everything in and left it behind. Furthermore, I even picked a new name for myself on the way.

Lâl.

That was my name now. Starting a whole new life with a brand-new name. It's like choosing your life when you're born. None of us can do that, can we? We can't choose our family. We may choose our profession, but we can't choose what kind of life we're going to be in. I did it. I've crossed the boundaries of a little courage, and I've done it. Like I said, I had nothing to lose anymore. Or so I thought. The feeling of giving up that steel armor was tremendous. That's exactly what I was in.

I came to Bodrum. I had nothing in my pocket but a dime. My little suitcase, a few pennies of money and I... It was enough to start life from scratch.

I went to a small boarding house. Cheap and small. I paid cash. First I took a clean shower and got dressed. I left my suitcase at the hostel, and I've been spuming all day in Bodrum. Why Bodrum? I didn't know either. İn fact it wasn't the place I wanted to see the most. I hitchhiked, and toured where they went with the people who picked me up. So there was no particular reason. There were no plans. Only people who had to plan every step of their life could understand how this was unique freedom. You're not taking responsibility for anything. Or you move on, not caring about your responsibilities. It is invaluable to experience the unbearable lightness of both situations. I think it's something everyone wants at least once in their life. Going to a place where no one knows you, changing your name, even traveling all over the world like this. It was a crazy dream, that's right. But I gave up enough to put it all behind me. And I was happy. I didn't have any plans in mind.

Later in the night, I walked into a bar in Halikarnas. It was a place I was curious about because of the *Halikarnas Balıkçısı. I thought it would be fooling not to come all the way to Bodrum and go to Halikarnas. There was nothing holding me back. I was free.

You're free now, Lâl. You can do whatever you want. Your new name and new life are waiting for you. You don't have to be careful about anything. You don't have to measure and weigh anymore. No one here knows you enough to be reprehensible. Relax. Be relax.