"You haven't checked yourself up to the doctor?" Mark felt at ease somehow. His shoulders relaxed and his eyes glistened. "So it means there's still a chance that your not sick?"
I held my fist to my chest. "Maybe... Maybe not... That scares me."
"What scares you?" I hesitated for a moment. I don't know either. Maybe knowing the truth? Because sometimes the truth doesn't always reveals... It also hurts you. What if I only have a month to live? Or worst... I could die anytime.
"Knowing that its true. That I have sickness. That I'm really ill. What if that my last day would me a month or a week or tomorrow? I don't want to know how many days I have left. I don't want to know that my life is decaying every second I live." I hold back my tears but it didn't work. Mark wiped them for me and pat my shoulder.
"You know, the truth is scary as shit and even hurts like hell. But I think knowing things is better than not knowing them." He rested his hands to mine. "We'll work this out together. You and I--we'll stand by each other and we'll get through this. If both our lives will end tomorrow, I wouldn't get scared. I would live my last seconds with you... With the people I'm happy with. That's you need to do too. Be free. Don't be afraid to fight your sickness and your fears. They should be destroyed, not befriended."
I didn't know what to say next. Mark had answered most of my questions. Although I'm still afraid, I'm now a little confident to go and check myself up.
I wiped all my tears with my handkerchief and Mark pats me softly. My phone sang on my pocket.
"Hello?"
(Hey, sugarpuff.)
I could see Mark stiffen and look away.
"I told you, don't call me that." Jr laughs and I could hear Spongebob Squarepants squel. "Where are you?"
(At your house. I picked Minho to his school expecting you there. We went out to buy chips and foods so he told me I could crash here. Where are you now?)
I slapped myself forgetting to get Minho from school and forgetting the time.
"I--uh--I'm at Mark's. Just talked about few things."
(Really? With Mark? I thought you don't want to---anyway, I'm happy that the two of you became friends again.)
Mark looks at me. I smiled at him and assures him with a nod.
"Yeah we are friends again. Uhmm.. I'll hung up now. I'm going home right now."
(You better get here fast. Minho and I have cooked some delicious food for us.)
"Okay, I'll be there fast."
(Okay, take care honey bunch.)
"Ew." We laughed and I hung up the phone. I look at Mark who was giving me a serious look.
"I can come with you to the hospital if you don't want to tell Jr about this."
I gave him a nod and smiled weakly.
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"BABE! Your here! I missed you." Jr leaped in front of me and hugged me tight that I literally couldn't breath because of this.
"Stop calling me those sweet names." He let me go and pouts.
"Were couples. I can call you any sweet names I want." He lifts my scarf and smiled. "As I see, the kiss mark is still visible. Good." I was about to open up my mouth and say something but he puts his arm over me and drag me through the house. "I'm hungry. We should eat."
