Tsukkiyama Oneshots

Sorry, Tsukki (Alternate Ending)

For this to make sense, you have to read the original One-shot!

He was struggling to get the door open. His hands were shaking and the tears he were forcing to stay in were coming out against his will. Right when he finally turned the key and burst down the door, he ran to all of the rooms and banged them down, looking for his Yams. The last room he burst down was the playroom that they loved dearly when they were little. When he almost literally broke down the door, he saw his Yams standing on a chair. His neck is about to go through the noose. He immediately froze when he saw Tsukki open the door. He was in shock, he didn't know what to do. Well, both of them were in shock and froze, not being able to do anything. Once out of the original shock, Tsukki immediately ran towards him and literally pulled him off the chair, just so he wouldn't try it while he was still there. He pulled him into his arms and just held him in a hug. Yams' legs, by reflex, wrapped around his waist. It was super awkward, or it should've been, but for some reason, it wasn't.

"W-what are you doing here, Tsukki! It takes at least 15 minutes to come here!!"

"I took a short-cut,... and I ran," he said, still panting, as he was never a good runner. They stayed silent for a little longer, only hearing the deep breaths that Tsukki took.

"Why?" Tsukki said.

"Huh?"

"Why?" he repeated, "Why would you do it. You are so important, so why! Were you still getting bullied, did I hurt you, did..." he started rambling on. Yams was shocked. Tsukki was blaming himself?!

"Hey, hey, hey," he cut in, pulling away from the grasp of Tsukki, "don't blame yourself!"

"Who else is there to blame? I am your best friend, so it's all my fault." By now, tears were flowing out of him.

"Did you even read the letter! You were the reason I didn't do it sooner. And stop crying, I love when you smile."

Ignoring the last sentence he went on, "But I should've stopped you altogether. You shouldn't have even been thinking about it. Let alone actually doing it. But here we are!"

"You are giving yourself too much pressure. It is not your fault. It's my fault. I didn't think it would hurt you."

"What the hell are you talking about, you are my life! And stop comforting me, I should be comforting you" he said while wiping his tears. "I must seem like a cry baby now, don't I?" he said with a sad, almost sarcastic, laugh. Now Yams got serious. He grabbed Tsukki's face with his hands.

"You are NOT a crybaby if you cry. It's human! Am I a crybaby if I cry?"

"No."

"So why are you?"

"Because... I am."

"See, you don't even have a good reason."

"This is not about me, this is about you, only if I could stop fucking crying."

Since Yams was wrapped to Tsukki's waist, he lifted himself to be taller than him. He then hugged him in a tight hug. He mumbled something on the lines of 'You can cry now, no one will see.' Yams pulled his head down softly so that it was hiding in his chest. Tsukki just wrapped his arms comfortably around Yams and cried. He felt selfish for crying, but he couldn't stop. A few minutes ago he had been thinking that he had lost the love of his life, otherwise, known as his world. Tsukki's head was buried in Yams' chest so that no one would see, not that he thought anyone was there. Yams just patted his head or played around with his hair. Though they weren't dating, he kissed Tsukki on the top of his head, as it just felt right in the moment. After a while, Tsukki looked up to see Yams staring at him lovingly. He wiped away his tears.

"Sorry for getting your shirt all dirty." he chuckled.

"It's fine!" Yams stopped sitting up in his grasp and sat back down on his lap, legs still wrapped around the other. They just stared at the eyes of the other, taking in every detail they could. Tsukki semi-consciously put his hand against the other's cheek and Yams leaned into the hand with a smile. They slowly got closer before they were in a kiss. Both were in immense joy at the fact the other liked them. Yams wrapped his arms around Tsukki's neck to steady himself and put his hands around the upper neck, touching some of the hair there. Tsukki's hands were already on his waist since Yams was on his lap, but now his hands were hugging the curves while moving up and down his body. Yams loved the feeling. He shivered.They could both taste a bit of the tears that were falling down earlier on their lips. When tongues were entered, they searched each other's mouth, as if looking for something. They were already as close as possible, but yams scooted forward a bit, causing a small moan to escape his lips. He flushed while continuing the kiss. After a few more seconds of pure joy, they broke the kiss. Their hands stayed in the same positions while Tsukki rubbed his thumbs against Yams' hip bone. Yams then had two tears fall down his face. They were tears of joy, but Tsukki panicked.

"Oh my god, why are you crying? Did you not like the kiss? I thought you liked it 'cause you kissed back. I'm so so..." he rambled on, feeling extremely guilty. Yams just laughed.

 "Gomen Tsukki, but these, are tears of joy!" he exclaimed while pointing at the tears, "I'm just so glad you like me back."

I haven't proofread it, so I'll comeback and do it!