Saving Me From Myself ( The Weeknd ࿎ Abel Tesfaye Fanfic )

Back to Cali (Chapter 4)

*this chapter contains a sensitive subject to many, please be mindful and kind to others*
(Jess's POV)
The next morning:

I wake up in the pent house confused about how I got here last night. I remember everything from before I got in the car last night, but after we got in the car the rest is a blur. I lay there not wanting to get up when I realize I'm wearing one of Abel's grey hoodies over my swim suit from last night. I sit up and instantly feel a migraine hit. I force myself up despite the pain and look around the house trying to find Abel but I can't find him. I start to get worried.

I walk over to the kitchen where my phone is plugged in and check it. 32 missed calls from Blaine. Fuck. I cheated on him, I think to myself. I ignore the missed calls and messages and find Abel's name. It rings a couple times before he answers.

"Hey, you're up." He says.

"Yea," I rub my eyes. "Where are you?" I say in a tired voice.

"I just left the store. I was buying you some Advil for that killer headache I bet you have right now."

I smile as I exhale and say nothing.

"I'll be there in five." He says softly.

"Okay." I say smiling still and hang up.

Just then I hear a knock at the door. It's Chaz. "Hey Jess," he says as I let him in. "How are you feeling?"

"Never better," I say laughing. "Abel just ran to the store, so he'll be back in like five minutes. I'm gonna go shower and pack."

"You do you," he smiles at me.

I walk away back towards my room and I feel his eyes lingering on me. I quickly shower and throw on some shorts and the hoodie Abel put on me last night. It's just barley big enough to cover the shorts. I put my white shoes on then pack my stuff and head back out to the living room still suffering from my headache.

Abel's sitting on the couch with Chaz watching and talking about the show on the tv their watching. When he see's me he glances at my outfit and smiles a little when he see's that it's his hoodie. He walks over to the kitchen and I follow him and sit myself on the counter.

He stands in front of me and hands me a couple Advil pills and a glass of orange juice.

I look down at my shoes and thank him. He sighs and puts a hand on either side of me on the edge of the counter. He's leaning down a little so he can see my face.

"What's wrong?" He asks me.

Everything. Why the fuck did I do all of that last night. Why did you stop me when I was with Drake.

"Nothing." I say and I take the pills and down the orange juice. He stares at me with a concerned look for a second before backing up so I could get off the counter. A couple hours of no talking passes until we're in his jet on our way back home.

We're alone on the jet. He looks at me and I make eye contact instantly regretting it and quickly turn away and take a drink from my water bottle. He looks down into his lap.

"Did you fuck him?"

I choke on my water. "What?"

He looks up from his lap and looks at me.

"I.. what.. why does it matter. It's none of your business." I say starting to get angry.

He clenches his jaw and says nothing.

"And why did you stop me from being with him? How is that your decision?"

"You were drunk,"

I give a sarcastic laugh. "I was consenting.. he didn't force me to do anything. Abel what the fuck! You had nothing to do with it!"

"YOU'RE A GOD DAMN VIRGIN AND IF YOU FUCK HIM YOU'RE GONNA GET ATTACHED AND HE'LL BREAK YOUR HEART BECAUSE HE'LL ONLY EVERY SEE YOU AS ANOTHER GIRL HE JUST FUCKES THEN THROWS AWAY, CUS THATS THE TYPE OF GIRL YOU ARE."

I look at the ground and there's a silence in the air that makes me uncomfortable.

"Fuck," he says walking over to me. I don't move. I just keep staring at the floor in pain from my hangover and what Abel just said. He sits in the chair across from me and leans over and puts his hand on my leg. I jump at his touch and he backs up with a confused face.

I get up without saying anything and go to the bathroom, shut the door and sit on the floor. I cry into my arms. Not him too. Please not him. He's my only escape.

With Blaine, yelling always leads to hitting and harsh words. And sometimes worse. I've never told anyone, not even Abel. I don't want to seem weak.

It's my fault. Blaine, now Abel. I'm obviously doing something wrong if I get them both this mad.

A couple hours later I hear the jet land and realize I've been on the bathroom floor for two hours. I stand and check my face in the mirror. My eyes are red and my face pale. I come out and I see Abel staring at the floor. When he hears the door open, he looks up at me and I try to hide my face as I start to gather my things.

(Abel's POV)
She won't look at me. I don't know why she jumped so hard when I touched her. Did she think I was going to hurt her? I feel guilty at the thought of scaring her.

"Jess?"

She ignores me so I go up to her. I slide my arm around her waist making her face me. She didn't flinch that time. I lift her face so I can see her and my heart breaks at the sight of her red eyes and wet cheeks. I've never made her cry before.

"Fuck," I sigh. "I'm sorry, Jess. I didn't mean any of it." I look into her eyes searching for something to tell me what she's thinking. I see nothing. I let go of her and she just nods.

Twenty minutes later, we're pulling up to her boyfriends house.

"I'll walk you up," I say as the driver pulls into the driveway. She smiles at me but it seems off, fake even.

I grab her bags and walk her up to the door. A couple seconds later Blaine opens the door and drags her inside without acknowledging me and I scrunch my face up in confusion.

"Bye Jess," I say

She waves and Blaine shuts the door. I turn to walk back to the car and stop in my tracks. Not two seconds later, I hear him yelling.

All couples fight, right? That aggressive though? I try to shake the thought away and not read to much into it and walk back to the car.

The next day.. let's just say.. I will always regret not doing something in that moment.

Authors note:
Hey guys this one was kinda short but it's late and I have school early tomorrow morning :'( I'll make sure to right more this week. Also, yes.. this story will get very dark at times. I'm shedding light on things that happen others around us all the time that we don't know happens. Hope you're all doing well.
-JB