Silent Hearts~(bakudeku)

Dahlia -Chapter 4(pt. 1)

~Izuku's P.O.V.~

The entry door had opened swiftly. The light from the outside creeping onto my face as I kept to the floor, in pain.
A pair of hands grabbed my shoulders firmly, making me look up, only to see my dear friend Todoroki. I wanted to say something, but the coughing and pain refused to let me. All I could do is simply look, trying my best to let him know I'm fine. But I neither could force a smile, or bring energy to my eyes. He already had a concerned, and worried look on him.

"Midoriya, what happened? Are you okay??" He asks me. I could tell he regrets the question because we both already know the answer. I could also tell that despite, knowing the answer he wants me to say the truth. And yet again, we both know I cant...

I hate feeling and looking so helpless, especially in front of him. Someone who has a traumatic past and still needs someone to help him have hope in himself and others. How can I be that person to help him when I'm like this? Trembling, pained, weak.

I can't keep being like this..

I unclench my hand from my t-shirt, fighting my coughs, I take careful breaths. It hurts. A lot. I press my hands against the cold floor, pushing myself up with all the strength I could muster..I can feel Todoroki's grip on my shoulders loosen, but still lingering near, cautiously. I feel his eyes on me, like a hawk as I lift myself up about halfway, lips pursed tightly blocking the incoming coughs. Not letting them out hurts more than just coughing like some sick person. It feels like the vessels of my heart are pulling tightly, almost as if they will pop out of me at any moment.

My throat starts feeling clogged, like it is filling up or getting blocked. The feeling increases to the point I'm sure there is something there. But I ignore it.

I instead look up at todoroki, the edges of my mouth tilt slightly I have to be strong. For myself, for him, and everyone else. Especially bakugo. He wont be worried, no. He would be annoyed, maybe even disgusted. Imagine seeing the person you hate becoming even worse. Becoming "useless" once again. I can't let that happen, I know he hates me, but just for my own comfort I dont want him adding more fuel to it...

Todoroki still sits there, looking up, not moving a muscle. Perhaps too shocked by my situation or maybe by my actions. He doesnt say anything, but his eyes are filled with anticipation, fear even. Preparing for something bad to happen.

I hope he prepared enough..