I was stunned and a sudden raise of an eyebrow was made by my reflexes.
“Hey,Rin I’m dead serious here. If I will not be able to pass that make up exam, I’m doomed! We’re friends now right? Please help me”
It’s funny to see him plead like that.
“Very well then we’ll start tomorrow. But!” I really emphasized that word for him.
“But what?” he asked.
“On my terms, okay? It will be in my house, no one should know this and everything I’ll say… You’ll follow.” This will be fun!
“Yes ma’am!” he answered while saluting like a soldier.
After those chitchat we decided to go home.
“So, this is your home” he said when we reached our house.
“My house not home” I coldly replied.
“What do you mean?”
Now, I got pissed off.
I don’t want anyone getting their noses under my own life.
I don’t know, it’s just so irritating when it comes with my family.
“Just go home!”
I slightly pushed him to leave but he grasped both of my arms and said
“C’mon Rin, I’m your friend now. You can tell me anything. Trust me; it’ll help you feel better. Don’t worry, I’ll be here. I’ll listen.”
By his words, I was stopped.
I stopped pushing him away.
I looked down, not because I’m crying.
“Promise?”
Maybe he got confused to me so his reply was
“Huh?”
It made me smile a bit.
“Would you promise me that you’ll be here with me?”
“I promise”
I was assured that he would keep that.
How am I sure? By the moment that I was asking him, I was staring directly at his eyes.
Within those emerald colours of his eyes, I saw that his promise was true and sincere.
“Another thing, promise me that no one can know everything I’ll tell to you”
“You have my word” he replied.
There it goes.
I started telling him why I called it my house.
Well, first of all, I live there alone. My parents were divorced. Both of them have their own lives, own families and I’m left alone.
No one dares to visit me.
They may provide me everything I like and everything I need but that’s not it. It’s not enough; rather, that’s not really what I want.
All I wanted is to feel loved and cared.
That I still have my own mother and father; I belong to a family.
That in this world,
in this fight,
I won’t be alone,
I won’t fight alone;
I am not living alone.
I don’t want to feel that I’m abandoned.
I never wanted those.
But, why am I experiencing all of these? What have I done? Am I a disgrace to them? Have the really loved me? Even for a bit?
I told him everything. Scratch that, not everything.
Just the things he needed to know. ‘Woah’was all he could say. Kidding, that’s not what he said.
I bid him goodbye and thanked him for everything.
“What a day!”
I said. Then, I threw myself to bed and off I go to dreamland.
