[edited] ZeRoyalChaos - The Truth

C 25

-Chapter 25-
-Chilled's POV-

I don’t know how this happened. How did I not notice the true intentions behind his words? I sunk into my chair letting the bass music fill my senses, I was too fucking invested in other business to realise what I was agreeing too, so here I was. Sitting opposite Ze, Galm beside him with Smarty beside me. The most awkward double date I’ve ever experienced. And he, my eyes lifted to meet Ze’s wide smile, dragged me into it. Despite Ze’s obviously happy expression, no one else felt quite the same, Galm and Smarty were avoiding one another’s gaze like the plague as I proceeded to curse Ze in my head. This was infuriating. I sighed heavily leaning forward onto the table with my elbows staring at Ze,

‘look,’ his eyes met mine, his smile filled with hope, and as I moved my lips to complain, nothing came out, I couldn’t bring myself to humiliate him, instead I reached across the table to take his hand in mine, ‘let's dance,’

‘dance?’ his lips parted in confusion, surprised that I would suggest that, I just really need to get out of this awkward situation. Though silenced, he nodded, his hair flopping over his eyes, ‘I’d love to,’ with those words, I eagerly rose to my feet sweeping his hand in mine as I desperately dragged him towards the dance floor.

Upon entering the dance floor, I didn’t realise how crowded it had become, glancing dance to Ze, his shining eyes were stuck on me, he didn’t seem to mind, so neither will I. I lifted one hand to his waist and the other to his face,

‘you enjoying yourself?’

His cheeks pinkened as he nodded rapidly with a bright smile,

‘I just hope they make,’ god, I smoothed my thumb over his lip to stop his sentence, I don’t want to hear about their issues, his eyes were still on me, I wanted him to enjoy the night, with me, not them, me, ‘don’t speak,’ his lips parted enough for me to take the opportunity to lift his head, a subtle warning almost, they closed as he retreated to a nod.

A smirk spread on my face in his silence, good. I know he planned this for our friends to make up, but he dragged me into this and he’s not getting away with it. I looped my arm around his waist pulling him into me with a grin, swaying slowly to the beat in the background of our episode. Our eyes stayed connected as our bodies were slowly getting to know one another, this was strange, Ze’s hands travelled to my chest, the distant thumping of my heart welcoming his small hands, no matter how often he did this, I hesitantly used my arm to close the tiny gap between us, every time felt like the first. My breath hitched as Ze’s lips met my jaw with a soft giggle, just like that, impulsively I lowered my head to his, holding him in place for our lips to collide chaotically, it felt like the excitement I got through watching a firework display, I could feel every bit of excitement and see every shade of pink on his face and the slight difference that his cheeks held to his lips. It’s such a strange feeling. What was this feeling? The removal of his lips caused my heart to throb in need as his words met my ear,

‘I think, I’m,’ my eyes widened as fear of his following words crept in my imagination, ‘...,’ his words were censored upon entry, I had spent so long wrapping my heart up, submerging it into a pool of concrete, far from anyone’s touch, yet, this shy, Canadian, doe-like guy finds a way to crack away at the exterior, what am I supposed to do?

My silence was obvious to him, hurtful to him. ‘Are you fucking serious?’ he pulled away from me, face red with anger and frustration, ‘it’s such a simple thing and you can’t say it back to me!’ distant tears billowing in his eyes, ‘after everything we’ve been through,’ his palm connected with my cheek as I stood knowing what I had done.

That’s how I expected him to react. Yet, Ze simply lowered his head into the nape of my neck, his breath light against my exposed skin, goosebumps billowing over my skin, voice muffled,

‘it’s okay,’ I, ‘I’m okay,’ why didn’t he pull away? Why haven’t I pulled away? ‘now you know how I feel,’ I, for once in my life, I was speechless, me, the guy who had everything in control with no external worries in life, was confronted with the world’s most difficult situation.

My brain was telling me to express my thoughts, talk through it, while my heart was threatening to spill its own emotions without explanation. I had no fucking clue what to do. If this was anyone else, I wouldn't even hesitate to reject them openly, even if they flew half way across the world to express their feelings, it would still be no. Fuck, a small hand laid upon my cheek softly leading my face down to theirs where I met Ze’s gentle gaze and smile,

‘don’t think about it too much,’ that’s too late, his cheeks unknowingly began blushing, ‘I’ll hold on tight to the fact you didn’t push me away,’ okay, I, think I can live with that, I smile faintly at the man before me, letting myself pull him back to his place against my chest.

How could such courage be so prominent in such a small person? Even worse, how do I continue from here?