Defect

The beginning

Failure. A word I've always been afraid of.

I am the youngest of four being my parents favourite. Funny it doesn't seem like that, it never has.

I've been singing since before I could remember. I've always dreamed of becoming a musical theatre actor. However from the age of three I did swimming.

I trained so hard to move up the grades and get to squad level, where you could compete nationally if you were good enough.

Every Sunday I would drive to swimming club with my brother. I would swim for 45 minutes and then I would go home.

When I was about 7 or 8 I moved up to grade 4 I was so happy that I would finally be getting closer to moving into the squad.

I kept moving up the levels until one day the head coach came to see my group swim to see who would for into the squad.

(I was about 10 or 11 at the time so I was in year 6 going into secondary. I'll get onto my school stuff in a minute.)

To my surprise two of my friends and I were picked. I new I was on my way to the big leagues.

I was put in the 1st lane for newbies. I met someone called Lauren she was so much faster than me it was amazing. She was so good at swimming. I thought we were gonna become really close.

I was wrong.

When we were listening to instructions from the head coach (kevin) Lauren asked if I wanted to play a game. Obviously me wanting to be her friend I agreed.

So she swam out away from the robes and the wall and took me with her. She told me to go underwater and scream to see if she could hear me.

As I dunked my head under she grabbed onto my shoulders and held me underwater so I couldn't breath.

Suddenly she stopped and I came back up to the surface gasping for air and choking on water. Then I noticed everyone was staring at me and at something in the watching area.

I looked up to see my mother standing up looking furious. I quickly realised my mum had shouted at Lauren in front of the whole club. I felt so embarrassed I wanted to just let her drown me.

hi so theses are gonna be really short coz its hard for me to write about this stuff. yes everything in theses chapters are real and it all happened to me and some still does. some of it is really funny and others still haunts me. i know that people go through way way way worse than this everyday but for me this is all really traumatic. i hope nobody has to go through what i did.

luv ya stay safe.

Xxx