My whole life I have felt different. Maddie told me not to mention it when I was younger it would make me a easy target and she was right as for the one time i did I was beat up pretty bad, so I have always kept apart of me to myself. Forced myself to be all over girls as if that was what really made me happy. Maybe I went too far to prove that. When I stole the trucks it was panic if Im honest. Chim saw me talking to a guy in the bar and I was scared he would figure it out so I had to do something.
When I met abby I thought it was my chance to find someone I can be with and stop always looking over my shoulder worrying people where questioning my sexuality but she figured out I was gay a little while into our relationship. She became like my sister and when she left it was like my sister was leaving all over again which is why it hurt so bad. once abby left I had a opportunity to have a brake from girl promised everyone I would not fall back into my old habits with the girls which worked for me as now I had a excuse and everything was fine I was hiding it well until he came into my life.
