Friendzoned? - A Zayn Malik fanfiction

Chapter 11: I am not callous

I woke up in Zayn’s bed the next morning. No, we didn’t do it, and by the way Lauren and Annabel were sleeping in the bed as well. The party lasted until early next morning, but Zayn and I fell asleep around 3AM. I woke up again at 6AM because a drunken Lauren needed help to go to the bathroom. The after-party went pretty wild, but everyone had a great time. I was with Zayn the whole night and we kissed a couple of times. I noticed some flashes while we were making out, but I was too drunk to care.

I looked around in the messy room, and I rested my head on Zayn’s chest. Lauren was resting on my bum and God knows what Annabel was doing. She had her feet on Zayn’s crotch, her arms spread so her hand touched my boob and her head rested on Laurens feet. I looked at Zayn and remembered how close we were last night. I was tempted to kiss his temple, but I didn’t. Even though we were kissing and snogging last night, I did not know if I could allow myself to do anything. After all we weren’t a couple, and we didn’t even talk about “us”. What if it was a drunken mistake from his side? But it couldn’t be. He wasn’t completely sober, but I know he knew what happened.

“Ritz? What happened with you and Zayn last night?”

Lauren whispered, and I was surprised she was awake this early. It was only 10PM, but she probably had a hangover and couldn’t sleep. Just then my head started to hurt, and I cursed myself to even think about hangovers. I would always end up with the worst hangover, even if I didn’t drink half as much as Lauren.

“Why are you up so early?”

I tried to change the subject, as I didn’t even know myself.

“I couldn’t sleep, and I think Annabel licked my feet while I was asleep. But don’t change the subject; I have seen the pictures of you and Zayn. Care to explain?”

I shook my head. What were there to explain? For me, last night was probably the best in months. I loved it when Zayn kissed my temple, teased about how small I was compared to him and gave me a peck or two.  We would also start making out and it just felt so right, but at the same time it all felt so wrong. Why? Because it was all so random. It just happened. I would like to know what we were right now, and if he actually felt something. I wanted to know if he felt the fireworks and if he was dying to kiss me, just as much as I was dying to kiss him. They say actions speak louder than words, but I would like some damn words as well.

“There is not much to explain. We just got a little too much to drink. It meant nothing.”

Lauren knew I was lying, but she didn’t push me further but she told me that we would continue this talk another time. She then went back to sleep, and I snuggled into Zayn. Unfortunately he woke up, and I pulled back and pretended to be asleep.

“Rita? Are you awake?”

He whispered, and shook me. I acted like I just woke up and that I was just as surprised as him by the fact we were in the same bed. Even though Lauren and Annabel were sleeping here as well, we were sleeping very close. Thinking about it, I actually think we kissed while sleeping. The tension was just beyond awkward as he looked around and tried to remember everything. He then looked at me, like he had this flash back and I knew he was thinking about last night incidents. We just stared at each other, still lying in the bed since it was impossible to move, and he was trying to confront me about last night, but he couldn’t.

“Well, now I am. What do you want Zayn?”

I was surprised about how calm my voice was. I was practically shitting bricks because of nervousness. He was about to say something but then a sleepy Annabel interrupted.

“Gosh guys, if you woke up just to kiss again can you please do it somewhere else? I couldn’t sleep because of your PDA!”

She then left the conversation as quickly as she joined it, and just as I thought it couldn’t get more awkward, it did. A nervous Zayn looked at me and with a shaky voice he said.