Friendzoned? - A Zayn Malik fanfiction

Chapter 5: Just friends

” Zayn is coming over in 30 minutes. Can he eat dinner with us tonight?” I asked my mum, who was in her office doing some paper work. The past few weeks have been great, and Zayn and I’s friendship has grown. Yes FRIENDship. I decided to forget about my feelings for once, because Zayn was too good a friend, and I would not risk losing him.

“Does that boy ever eat at home? It is not that he isn’t welcome, but he has been eating here every day this week. Does his family not miss him?” My mum asked, this time looking worried. The truth is, Zayn’s family is having a hard time right now. I don’t know what is going on, and Zayn has not told me, but he wants to stay away as much as possible.

“Hmm, mum personal issues. Don’t ask about it.” I said, not wanting to discuss it.

Lauren and Mum find it ridiculous that I have not told about my feeling to Zayn yet. They just don’t understand that things are not that easy. Zayn and I are best friends, and things are going so well. He is fun, caring, lovely and so much more, there is no way I will risk losing that because of my feelings. I know it sounds weird, but in the end I know he might not like me back and things will just be awkward.

“RITZ YOUR BOYFRIEND IS DOWNSTAIRS, COME DOWN NOW” Max yelled. This was so embarrassing first time he called Zayn my “boyfriend” but we are used to it now, and we either laugh it off or ignore him.

I went downstairs and greeted Zayn with a hug. He looked quite sad, so we hurried up to my room. As we came in we sat in my bed, just looking at each other. This was kinda usual for us to do. We have been spending so much time together the past few weeks and somehow we can understand each other just by looking. Not talking, just looking. It is like we can see into one another’s souls. Quite amazing huh? Or just weird.

“Rita I can’t take this anymore. My parents are upset with each other, and fighting in front of my sisters. They are talking about a divorce, and the whole house is one big chaos. My grandparent’s just came to pick my sisters up, as my parents need some time to solve their problems. Can I stay here? My grandpa and grandma live out of town, too long from college and stuff”

“Sure! Do you need to get your stuff first or?”

“I brought them, because I knew you would say yes. You truly are my best friend Ritz!” He smiled widely and hugged me. If only he knew how much it hurt to be his friend, when I wanted something else.

Since I have had the dream about “us” being possible, I have been so confused. In the end of the dream he wanted me, just like I wanted him. But first he friendzoned me, and I really don’t get what this dream is trying to tell me. One thing I got out of that dream is, if I end up telling him and he does not feel the same way, it will crush me. Even though it was just a dream, I could feel it when he said I was like a “sister” to him. And I guess I was.

I went downstairs to tell my mum Zayn will be staying here a few nights because his parents need some time alone to figure something out.

“That sounds great Rita! Max will be happy to hear that” She flashed a quick smile, before heading back to her work.

Max and Zayn had this brotherly relationship. I guess Zayn is the older brother Max never got, and he really likes Zayn. They do so many boyish things together, and Zayn gives him advises on girls, friends, school; you name it! It’s lovely to see my family likes Zayn though; even my mum has this bond with him. I’ve seen them have a nice little chat over a cup of tea, while I have been studying. He sometimes comes just to visit them, not me!

“Can I invite Lauren too? Just for this night” I pleased, because it would be so fun. I was not sure if she would let me considering it was a school night.

“Hmm just this time then, can you please stop interrupting now?” She did not even look up at me. I guess this paperwork was important. You see, mum had her own clothing line. Not very big though, she started it a few years ago. Instead of hiring people to do the economic work with papers and all that financial stuff, she does it herself. Why? Because she does not trust anybody I can’t blame her after what my father did… That reminds me. I have known Lauren since elementary school; I think she deserves to know the thing with my father. And Zayn deserves to know too.

I quickly send Lauren a text, telling her to sleep over. She lived just across the street, so she would be here pretty soon. I then went upstairs and saw a half-naked Zayn on my way.

“Hey Ritz, I just took a quick shower. And could you stop staring at my sexy abs it’s rude” He winked at me, which made me roll my eyes.

“Is your abs covered by a layer of fat because I don’t seem to see them” I said joking. It was the world’s biggest lie though. He looked damn fit and his abs. Let’s just say I’d like to lick chocolate of them.

“You are hurting me Ritz” he said, fake crying.

We went into my room and he quickly changed, as I turned around.

“I know you want to look Rita, you can just do it. No one can resist my body”

Can he not! Here I was, trying NOT to turn around and just kiss the hell out of him in his boxers.

“You wish Malik! You wish..”

Suddenly Lauren came in, threw her bag in the corner and sad down on my bed.

“What’s up dudes, have I missed anything? Let’s put on a movie. Holy goat, ZAYN PUT ON SOME CLOTHES”

I giggled, and Zayn quickly went into my walk in closet to change. I was a bit nervous about that thing with my dad. They deserve to know, and I think it would be so much easier if I told someone. But how did I do that?

“Guys. There is something I want to talk to you about” I said, quietly. I wished they did not hear me, because I regretted it. I was not ready yet. But there was no way back now.

“Hey are you okay Ritz? What do you wanna talk about?” Lauren said, looking worried.

“Ritz whatever is bothering you, tell us. We are here to help you” Zayn said seriously. He was always so protective.

“I have avoided talking about my father as you know. But I have been thinking about it, and I think it is only fair if I tell you the story.”

They look at me nodding, to show they were paying attention.

“It all started when my father raped my mum, and she got pregnant with me”

 A/N

Hey guys, sorry for the late update. I will be updateing minimum twice a week. Most likely between sunday and thursday. 

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