lost and confused

chapter 3

I couldnt sleep, thoughts of cody were taking over my mind. I check my phone to see what time it is, 5:57. Might as well get ready now. I got up and dresed in black leggings, an oversized unicorn shirt, and black vans throwing my hair into a messy bun. After everything thats happened, im not in a mood for makeup so I just put on mascara. In the process, I see a shiny piece of metal.. I reach for it and do what I do best..selfharm. When I finish, I grab all my shit and checked my phone again,  6:25. I dont have to leave for another 10 minutes so I went downstairs and watched spongebob. Thank god my moms not home, shes probably out sleeping with some guy twice her age.

Ten minutes quickly pass and I head out the door, locking it behind me. I do the usual and go to Starbucks ordering a white chocolate mocha with extra whipped cream. It feels wrong getting only one...whatever. 
                  ~ le magical time skip of 5 minutes ~

I get to school and run to my locker. Opening it, I throw in my pennyboard,  bag,  and grab my books.  I see cody walking up to me.. oh no..

I hurt him yesterday, hes gonna hurt me today. Not that it makes a difference. He walks over and raises his hand. I flinch, only to realize hes just resting his arm on the locker.

"Roni...I - im sorry.."

"Sorry?! You beat me around for 3 years! I starred selfharming because of you! You cant just say sorry and expect it to be okay!"

" I know. You have every right to hate me. But I mean it. Im in love with you roni! Thats why I did it!"

I felt kinda bad now..

"Im sorry cody..for hurting you yesterday. For snapping at you.. but I love you to. And whenever you hurt me, it made me fall more in love, and I dont know why."

He smiled at me and grabbed my hand. We walked to first period together, but devided to skip last minute. I went and got my stuff from my locker as he did the same.

"Did you really selfharm because of me?" He asked.

"Not just that. My mom, she beats me. Everyone at school hates me and I dont know why. My dad left when I was 4 and it was my fault. The only person ive ever had was leah..but I don't know anymore"

"Roni, im her for you. I swear ill never leave you or hurt you intentionally ever again. I promise."

He held both my hands and looked into my eyes. He leaned in and I did the same,  letting our lips meet.

This chapter is really short, I know. But I felt like uploading a chapter today. :3 I hope you guys like it. Bai. ~briana