✰𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙧✰yumemi x fem reader

𝘾𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

(Sorry for the shitty chapters mental health go wee woo)

"So..i cant sing anymore?" i looked at kirari in horror.

"No.." she shook her head , handing the flower back to me.

Preforming had been the one thing i had always been good at , it was one of the few things that really made me happy.

I stared at the floor .

"The meeting is going to start soon." kirari went to sit in her chair as ririka walked in.

I stared at the flower in my hand , was this how i have to live now? I understand kirari said to to tell yumemi , but she loves me , she wouldnt use it against me.

"Whats that?" ririka asked looking at the flower.

"..." i just shook my head , she seemed to understand.

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I walked out the student council room with yumemi.

"Remember we have a concert today!~" she hummed.

Eh fuck what Kirari said. What does she know.

I thought for a moment , i knew what i was about to do was very risky , but i didnt care , if i couldn't preform i wasnt good enough... and dad would find out.

"Mhm!" i smiled at her. "Just dont tell kiri.." i muttered.

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A sound of the crowd , talking waiting for the show to start , i loved it.

"Arent your sisters gonna watch?" yumemi asked me , we were on in a few minutes.

"I hope not." i shrugged.

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"I used to hate the sand

Now all I want is to be buried in it

I used to hate holding your hand

But I took my skin for granted

I love the ocean

Only 'cause you were there

When you heard of the news

You weren't even scared

I wanna scoop out my cheeks

So you can't pinch them anymore

I want to add to my legs

And be as tall as the morgue

I want the fat in my arms to melt off my bones

And my stomach to fall out right onto the floor board"

I could feel my lungs slowly closing up, buds forming , i pushed it away as much as i could.

"Arms, legs, gut, face, all of the things you love but I hate

Arms, legs, gut, face, all of the things you will never see again"

It was really hard to breath now , this had become visible to yumemi.

"Arms, legs, gut, face, all of the things you love but I hate

Arms, legs, gut, face, everything you will never see again!"

I stopped , i ran off stage coughing.