Braddison's daughter

Chapter 45

Previous: ''Wtf do you really think that low of me this is not about sex i dont love you for sex wtf is wrong wth you i- I cant do this''

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I felt so fragile as if his touch can break me

''Please don't leave if you leave it will get harder. Please don't leave me'' I whispered the last part

'' Addison look at me I am not leaving you why would you ever think that as much as I am upset right now I wont leave you I promised in that altar to be with you through the good and the bad for the rest of our life an I will stay true to that but im upset and angry why would you think that I want you because of sex its not that i miss fucking you thats not whats bothering me i would never do anthing if you dont feel comfortable with it but I do miss your affection i miss being able to hug you without you pushing me off and telling me you have to go see the kids when they are prerectly fine and you know it I miss kissing you and holding you in my arms every night i miss that i miss my wife'' he siad with tears in his eyes

Fuck

''I even spent weeks planning valentines for us because i try to understand you and get you away for awhile i planned all of this for you i was so happy to tell you hoping you would be excited as well but you just pushed it away like you have been doing and I don't wanna be like this, this is not us I love you but I don't want to be like this Listen to me I will never leave you but we do have to do something about it we can't live like this i can't live like this''

Hearing his voice crack broke my heart i realized what i was doing wasn't fair to him he needed me and I had been pushing him away I hate knowing i did that

He is looking at me with those sweet tender eyes

''I'm sorry i- I didn't know you felt like that I HAVE JUST BEEN SO OCCUPIED WITH THE KIDS AND EVERYTHING I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW i WAS MAKING YOU FEEL IM SO SORRY AND I MISS YOU TOO BABY I MISS YOU'' i sobbed into his arms we stayed like that for a while we were not talking just in a comfortable since I wish we never had to break apart I felt safe that feeling of comfort I haven't had in a while
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''Let's do it''

''Do what''

'' lets fix us let's go on that trip no kids no anybody only you and me''

''Really baby' he smiled from ear to ear his dimples showing

''Yes i want to be happy again''

He brought me in for a passionate kiss and for the first time in a long time I felt that euphoria I got from being with him again. I love this man with every single bone in my body.

That night Mads brought the kids back and her and Jaden hanged out for a while with Jake soon they left and Bryce and I would be sleeping together for the first time in three months

We laid down together and he cuddled me I miss this so much I miss his arms wrapped around me his scent I missed the feeling of safeness and security he makes me feel

After a while we felt somebody jump on our bed it was Belle with teary eyes

''What's wrong princess'' I asked turning on the lamp

''Me scared mommy monster under the bed'' she sobbed

''there is no monster under your bed sweetie''