My names lia Barin and this is my story, my real story
I was born in England the United Kingdom, 5'3 and very insecure and shy this is why,
I started reception when I was 5 I got skinny shamed by the girls poking me to see if they could feel my bones, I hated it and they used to call me freaks for having epilepsy.
Nursery.
6 years old and I moved different school's started to gain weight because I hated being different, only to realise it effected my epilepsy and my anxiety (yes I know anxiety at 6) I used to get sad sometimes because of silly things like I didn't get star of the week or something, people bullied me for having seizures I hated it again so I moved.
Year 1
Year 1 was like every over year 1 it was boring and the children were silly, I felt so left out because I had gained too much weight and people used to call me fat and ugly and names, I was mature back then, I was different
Year 2
Year 2 things started to change I had met my best friends who didn't shame me for anything and made me feel good about my body, in the middle of year 2 she moved I was devastated and I wished I would of went with her but my mum said no since I moved too much, I got bullied again for being alone.
Year 3
Year 3 is when it all started I'll explain, I started to get abit depressed and shy and people called me names but I just ignored, I was weak basically. I had got another friend who made me feel abit down she used to compare me to the skinny kids but nicely kinda, what's so bad is that she kept ditching me for other people and causing me to stop eating abit.
Year 4
It all changed here again
I had met my other best friend who actually liked me. The other person just ditched me after I went with her, I started to like her maybe even like like her if you know what I mean. I realised that I might have been lesbian but I was like 8 so I didn't know.
Year 5
Year 5 changed my life, lockdown came causing me to miss a year, I slumped into a depression state causing me to cry every night hoping I wouldn't wake up, I know I'm young now but I'm too young nobody should experience even abit of this. My parents started to notice I was getting to my period ages so they checked me, I knew it was the hormones making me sad but I've been like this all my life.
Year 6..
Year 6 wrecked me, people looked at me weird pushed me around and said I had got fatter I got so scared, really scared, I started to take many days off but too many, people called me weak and said I'm too old I'll probably die way sooner. I got tired really tired, I tried to make them stop, nothing worked until something happend, something clicked on me
Year 6 part 2
I had realised I shouldn't care, do what I want when I want, shouldn't care what people think it's my life. I sound ridiculous but it's true. It didn't work what I had said but I tried right? Christmas came, I freaked school is over till after, that's even badder. I forgot how school felt and we're going back on March 8th. March 8th? This can't be happening I'm not prepared, I know I have 2 weeks but it's too soon. I went into another depression slump, people online called me names, I just needed to go home, not home like where I am now but home where I can be alone with people who I trust and they trust me I need to go home.
