Flawless???

Day 15-22

Nov 30

Its been almost a week since we've got here and I haven't liked it one bit. It only took us four days to unpack and get the house in order so that left me and my sisters 3 days to do whatever we wanted to. We tried to go out and meet new people but no one seemed to be very friendly. I saw a group of girls the other day and I wanted to approach them and say hi but one girl shot me a nasty look and I lost my courage. I've spent the last 2 days inside watching TV and on the phone with friends back on Cali.

The night before school I layed my clothes out did and did lot of weird things to relieve my stress.  

I brushed my teeth at least 250 times, I was hopped on one single for 2 straight hours,  I put on make up... Took it off.... Put it back on... and took it off again. I even went into a hand stand against the wall and I stayed like that for and hour. I had to stop though  because all the blood rushing  to my head wasn't very healthy and I'm not to keen on the idea of getting an aneurism the night before my first day of school.

None of things I did helped much... In fact I think it made it worse.

I went to bed around 10:00 o'clock but I couldn't sleep at all.

I was going over different scenarios of how tomorrow could go.  This wasn't a very good idea because it only brought up my anxiety....

I finally slept around midnight.

Nov 22 2014

I woke up around 3:30 am for some reason and I couldn't fall back asleep so i decided to start getting ready. I went to shower and stayed in there for an hour. My skin was wrinkly but at least I knew I was clean.

When I got out my older sister was already awake.

"Why are you up so early?", she asked sleepily

I shrugged

"I don't know. I woke up and couldn't fall back asleep so I just showered", I said nonchalantly....

She have me a quizzical look but didn't question me any further and went to go shower her self.

When i went back to my room it was already 4:35.

It wasn't time to wake up my little sisters so I'll them sleep for another hour or so.

I had shaved in the shower so when I went to put lotion on, my skin felt smooth. I then put on lace undergarments and then wore a sports bra and put on a pair of spandex. I decided to do my nails so I painted them a pink and put on white  silver rhinstones and pink bows. When I was sure my nails were dry it was 5:15 and went to go get my sister up.

Ashley wasn't very hard to wake up. I shook her a few times and told her to go bathe, my youngest sister on the other hand might have woken up half of new Orleans.

I tried to pull her out of bed but she refused. I used a little more force and she began to scream and wail.

"Princess get up!", I yelled trying to get her up

"NOOOO", she wailed

"Come on! Its your first day of school. Don't you wanna go??!?!", I said trying to heave her off the bed

For a 5 year old she was pretty strong...

"NOOO LEAVE ME ALONE! MOMMYYY!", She kept wailing

"PRINCESS PLEASE",I yelled giving one huge heave and she fell onto the floor.....Big mistake because she then threw a tantrum

My dad ran in and he had an angry look on his face

"What Is going on!!", his voice bloomed

Both me and princess froze in place and looked up in shock. I had her by her hair and she was trying to bite my arm and we both were in a wrestling position on the floor.....